Find my happiness

I always ask myself why am I crying if i should be happy but I feel like i forget how to find it like i don’t know what my happiness is
i feel lost, out of control like I’ve forgotten how to be happy. for example I wake up and smile but i ask myself why am I smiling….
i feel confused i feel angry but i don’t know about what

i just need to find it before it’s gone D:

we are nothing but nothing.
creatures created by GOD.
and our destiny was planned even
when were still in the womb of our mom.

yet, we have devilish thoughts
and we cannot feel contentment right before our very eye.
we seek happiness causing us to get lost of the correct path.
we intend of making ourselves turn to somebody
which is the opposite of the our real image.

and due to this sickness, human beings bear.
we cannot locate the exact happiness we really wish to see.

This means something different to everyone …..

I can imagine my happiness but haven’t yet found a way to obtain it just yet.

My happiness may not be your happiness.

I have found that happiness is beingout in the world. WIth people I love and that love me. Happiness is coffee at two in the morning. Happiness is writing. Painting. Laughing. Conversing. Happiness is being away from home. Happiness is acting on whims. Happiness is doing what I love, at any cost.

I just finally realised that the person who I thought was my happiness was a mistake. She has no part of my life now, my happiness wasn’t hers to keep!

I haven’t seen or talked to her in over 6 months.

I had my happines all along.