and i would rather be patient and suffer temporary lonliness and eventually be socially exclusive. Bad company is the more destructive than lonliness in my oppinion. friends are pretty easy to meet and i always seem to have some down to earth people around.
being alone can actually be really comfortable and fun.
and otherwise i guess i want to be secure. which is a work in progress. but will be accomplished. 5 years ago
i know if things went wrong i would have a lot of difficulty in my life. and i have been there before and seen other people in that situation. i know what that is like and you can live through it, but it’s so hard, it rarely works out honestly.
i want to have my own source of finances so i don’t have to rely on anyone. i want money saved up.
i don’t really believe that you can rely on others. i want to feel ok with myself so that i don’t have to rely on others. so i guess that is that i want to feel secure. 5 years ago