Take my medication

made me emotionally comatose
I’m on a much lower dose now and its so much better.

I’m not allowed my meds anymore, until next week when i start new ones.
I’m going nuts, getting angry at everyone, crying alot, I’m paranoid.

I took meds for granted…

I am bipolar and when I don’t take my meds I am an emotional wreck. I need to remember to take my meds so that I can be healthy and happy.

The cycle of meds was over long ago.

Took my meds.

Took meds.

So I will do that. Starting now.

I am bipolar and am often on antidepressants and mood stabilizers. I get off my medicine just to turn around and get back on it. Yes I know that life can be easier when I am on a well established medication but I can’t get well established on my medicine because my condition makes it hard for me to take my meds regularly. I decided that I was going to stop taking it all together. Every so often I think I want to go back on it but my sister is there to remind me that medicine just doesn’t work for me. It ends up making things worse because then I start to cycle and act crazy. Over time I will deal with the depression, it’s already starting to get better. Untill then I will be satisfied with my mind not spinning out of my control.

I keep forgetting to take this stupid shit. I even have reminders coming in and I still forget. I don’t know why this is so difficult for me, my therapist says it a subconscience reaction to the fact that I don’t want to be on antidepressants. I don’t know if thats true or not but I’ll keep struggling to remember.

5 days in a row I haven’t forgotton or been late. I might be able to do it this time.