stop existing and start living

I am tired of doing all of my hard work, just to make some people happy, from now on I am going to start living my life. It’s me now.

If everyday you;re not living on the edge, you are taking up too much space.

Lifes journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a wel preserved body but to but to skid in sideways totally worn out going ” Holy shit .. what a Ride!”

All I have is time. I guess I should use it wisely.

I will be 40 next year…yeah I am asking myself all the deep questions about my past, present and future. I look back and wonder how did I party as much as I did and kept my job all these years. And I wonder..when did I suddenly become scared to do anything. Scared of crowds, so I dont do concerts. Scare of rollercoasters, so I dont do amusement parks. Shit, I still dont know what I want to be when I grown up..but I know what I dont want to be. I dont want to be one of those scared cranky old people living with regret..but I also dont want to be one of those 40yr old women in a club trying to look or act 25 looking to get pumped full of botox. I accomplished some things and I had alot of fun..but if the life expectancy of a woman is really 80..that means my life is almost half over..I dont want to be scared anymore.

If you are living a life that is largely making you unhappy, change it. Change only seems hard – once you’re through it then you’d be surprised. I was. I spent years at a job I went to even though it bored me and with a man i didn’t love because it was safe and easy. I turned 30 and thought, holy crap my 20’s are GONE and I haven’t done a thing! At 31 I changed it all (took a while to get the guts). All of it, entire life. I’ve never felt more free. And HAPPY. Happiness comes in moments, not lifetimes. Recognize those moments and cherish every one.

I think I might have done this…..

Cuz I kinda lived this summer<333

But I’m not checking it off cuz I don’t wanna stop:-D

i just want to be that dare devel that i use to be

I’m sick of the same routine every day. I want my full year’s to be like my summer’s…kick ass.