Sarah - spunky the pop monkey is knitting knitting knitting
if you live in fear of getting hurt your never really gonna let anyone in. If you don’t let them in to get to know the real you deep down then why should they stick around. they reach that wall and they can’t find a way in the only other thing to do is leave it.
But i also don’t believe that every relationship should be considered a serious relationship. So many guys put on a good show to get what they want. But the real ones will be there when you need them. (even though sometimes they suck at reading the signs and sometimes you have to say the words “i need you”) But they will be there because they care about you and whats going on with you. One night recently i was on the phone with greg… our usual playful banter and what not, around 11:30 he expressed he needed to go to bed because he had a test in the morning and both of us procrastinated a bit and somehow we got on the subject of my current situation (the pregnancy, my parents and other stuff) it was mostly just me talking, getting it out and him listening. when i was done and it was quiet i saw it had been about 45 mins and i said “i’m sorry, you were trying to go to bed 45 minutes ago” he got me with this “that doesn’t matter, my bed time is irrelavent, i’m worried about you and what your dealing with right now.” THAT is care. Any other guy i know (relationship or not) would have said “it’s ok” and proceeded to get me off the phone. There are even a few who would have said something like “can we talk about this tomorrow?”
Now to clarify Greg and i are to far apart to be in a relationship but he has been an amazing guy to me. i don’t think i’ll be able to let him go… and i don’t think he will object :D
