display of profound insight to human nature

I have come to a realization about people in my life. I am the type of person who will help anyone I know do anything they need. At least help them find a way to do it. I feel my friends and my family’s problems are my problems as well. They come to me when they need help and I try to help them solve it. Lately, in the past six months or so, I’ve realized there were some people in my life that I had given so much time and effort to. I had given them my all, for them to tear me down and hurt my soul. I have come to a point in my life, where I no longer have the time or patience, (or compassion) for people who: 1. won’t help themselves, and 2. only need you around when they need help.

My point is this.
There comes a point in your life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people, the bullshit and drama they bring.

reacently read the davinci code and watched dogma.
i know totaly unrelated except for the fact that they both deal with hidden aspects of religion. watched the extras on dogma and director kevin smitt aka silent bob and dan brown have gotten deat threats for their subject matter. what gets me is the fact that so called good christians(ones that are following Gods good word and spreading it suposidly.) these are the people sending the death threats. How do good christian people following Gods word get so freaked out bad enough to threaten to commit one of the worst mortal sins. All in the name of God. Isn’t that hypocracy? Not to mention actual organized religion putting their 2 cents about it. When everyone knows (or at least should realize) that they are both fiction stories. nothing more than actual some facts put carefully together to make up and amazing story for entertainment pourpous only. Could both stories be true? just like any other written work in history (including the Bible) they were written be men and yes they could be true but does man lie? Yes man does!!!!! I believe why people are so upset is that these works have shaken their belief structure and now they are panicing, scrambling like two teens that hear the parents of the house pull up infront of the house and freaking out trying to get their clothes together. NOw don’t get me wrong religion is a great thing it gives people something to look forward to past life. people like these twisted people like the death threat wrighters that make it a bad thing. Personaly i’m athiest but unlike most other athiestthat dog religion as a whole that i am not. just like anything else people make it what it is. please don’t get mad at me here these are just random thoughts that run through my mind all the time as desturbing as it may be. this is just a way of purging my head of everything that is in me

Or not…

guess it’s better to have vented and deleted than to not have vented.

people never realize how precious life is untill they are faced with thier own mortality. people take things for granted so much on an every day basis that it saddens me to think about it. It saddens me and makes me a little sick to think i was one of those people. I do put that in the past tense though for my line of thinking has taken on another way so to speak. Twice in my life now i am faced with life altering health issues. the first one turned out to be just a fals alarm, and i took it for granted. But now it is another possible problem entirely. the hase that was my life has come into full focus. I see everything so much clearer and with such brilliant color that it is frighting. The wife i have i have not been so great to and not made her feel they way she should feel. that is all over now and no matter how the tests turn out i will from now on and always see this clearly about things in this matter. she will always be greated with a smile and a hug and kiss just to touch her is all i want. My kids will only know love and understanding. My true friends (and they know who they are) will always be cherished.
My life from here on out will be drank in like a fine wine and savored and enjoyed to the fullest extent without over indulgence. Too much and you are never getting all of the enjoyment out of it and too little would be a tragidy. An i will rely on my wife most of all to help me moderate life and our friends to help her with her trials on keeping me on the middle road. To my love i am truely greatful and to our “new friends” i hope they keep her on me.

have you ever niticed that no matter how much of something you have you still want it even more if someone else wants it. you could eat a whole thing of oreo cookies( i use oreo’s as an example cause they are my favorite) except for one and then say that no i don’t really want the last one and your friend swoop in and take it and then you realize you really wanted it after all

noone ever misses the things that are there till they are gone. your health the car keys, your mind!!! we don’t ever know things are there most of the timoe cause we never look for them and never really appretiate them and then are upset the second they are gone or the first sight that they are gone.

i believe that no matter what people will always disagree. i believe that if there were only 2 people left that they would disagree no matter how simmilar there ideas were while everyone else were around. i believe that this would be because of a strugle for power. or ones natural instinct to be right or in control of a situation.and please forgive any spelling mistakes.

it is human nature to see ones own point of view. the problem is that they never try to see anothers point of view as the person see’s it. they try and see it from the other persons point of view but with their own mind. so therefore making it inposible to truely see it the other persons way by that line of thinking. i hope this is a fair assesment of the predicament that is at hand. I try to se every p[oint of view but i realize now that it would be imposible to see it as the other truely see’s it due to different lines of thinking and thought process. but try none the less i must.

got to thinking today about something today that disturbs me.
think about this one and respond with your comments please
forgive the spelling
nostridomous predicted things hundreds of years in the future of this i think we can all agree. Now that would mean that these things were destined to happen no matter what cause he predidted and they came to pass. so my question is that is the future already written and we are suposed to do the things we do on a daily basis cause we are suposed to by some sort of design? this would mean that everything we do we have to do cause it is already layed out for us. so that would mean that the murderer is destined to kill adn the hero is suposed to save and some people are suposed to get married to eachother and others devorced. and so on and so forthand no ones lives are in their own hands and choices are not choices at all but the illusion of choices. this line of thinking truely disturbs me.

people are more comfortable being in a routine and knowing what is going to happen and would rather stay that way and not do something that they are unsure of even if they think that it is a great thing to do cause they are more comfortable knowing the situation that they are going to be going into and knowing it will not be a good thing. basicaly fear of the unknown really no matter how bad or good a situation is they would rather it stay that way and have a good idea what tomorrow brings that do something else and take a chance and not know what will happen tomorrow. does anyone agree with the ideaology?