Be more open about my feelings

Since my mum passed away at the beginning of the year I cannot tell people what I’m feeling. Its like its not possible for me to do it… I really want to be more open to my partner and remaining family members.
I just don’t know how to.

Someone please help me.

I’ve said and not said things to often. I need to say what I feel but say it more accurately.

i am a type of persons that don’t talk much about my feeling
i just keep them inside & this really driving me crazzzzy
sometimes i just want to scream at annoying people faces but i hold my self & am really tired of supresssing my self ….
it’s time to take actions …..

I’m just sitting here crying because I’m very confused. I’m in school and I feel unmotivated to do anything. The only person I really talk to about my feelings is my sister but I know she has her only life and problems and I hate making her upset with mine. I just dont feel that close to any one else that i feel like its ok to tell them things that are personal. Sometimes I think I’m quite depressed. I just feel like there are so many reasons I dont want to say what’s on my mind mostly because I’m nervous that I’m gonna be criticized. I never feel that it is normal plus I dont want people to just pity me. I sometimes write things but that doesnt help as much. I want to have good friends but I feel like this may keep me from having friends at all in the end. I’m always surrounded by people and lonely & wanting to do new things but feeling trapped by my shy awkwardness. I’m tired of trying to act perfect and like I know it all. I act like I’m confident but it gets really hard to pretend. I wasn’t always like this, it’s sorta stressing me out. Sorry this is so long but this is the most open I’ve been and I just want to get some other person’s take on it. Is it a good idea to tell this to strangers rather than people I know? What’s wrong with me and what should i do?

Can anyone give me some advice on how you did this because im trying to put myself out there but it’s hard to get in that frame of mind. any tricks??

i actually feel that this maybe the key to me being the person i want to be. looking forward to doing this goal. it might actually lead to general well being and contentment which is my ultimate goal

I’m getting better I think. I used to run away from expressing any sort of emotion but now when I know I should really show how I feel I just force my self and always feel much better afterwards.

but I’ve learned how to express my emotions better. And I feel much better. It actually feels like a weight has been lifted when you tell someone else how you’re feeling or cry about something. I’m know I’m never going to be one of those people who tells people EVERYTHING but I think I’m making progress

I can easily express anger/annoyance etc. but nothing like e.g.saddness. I cried for the 1st time in a year last month at a funeral. I’m not an emotional person, and I feel quite uncomfortable when people cry around me. I just don’t like the thought of being vunerable and weak

My whole life I have been taught that feeligns don’t matter, that if you cry its because you are weak, and now I have no emotions normally but at times I will just be a complete basketcase because everything comes out at once. Last night my boyfriend told me he loved me… I pretty much just smiled at him, I have no knowledge of love or any other feeling… how can you express your feelings without feeling weak?