be here now

a better now.

Part of being here now is letting things go…......we all have to do that from time to time.

Thoughts, habits, people/relationships, customs, opinions…..etc etc etc.

If it isn’t good for your soul or spirit..it must go.

Sometimes this seems as hard as detaching one of your own limbs, at other times…......those “things”, well….....they just float away. Whether thru the mindful practice of being in the now or a deep shift occuring within for some other reason, I don’t know.

All I know, is today I feel “lighter”.

I guess I don’t really need to know the reason. I am just content to be. Here. Now.

I wrote about how not carrying my cellphone might be a way to help keep myself in “the here & now” (although a cellphone is, obviously, a terrifically useful object to have around). I was reminded of this during the past week when, on two consecutive days, in the flurry to get out of the house in the morning, I forgot to pick it up & take it with me.

When I didn’t have it, I missed it, wanted it, felt I “needed” it, & thought of all the (pleasure) calls that I could have been making. But today, when I did have it with me again, I found myself resenting the (business) calls that I had to make: to the dentist to schedule an appointment, the gas company (utility), & the car dealership to schedule a repair.

Interesting.

Part of being here NOW is not worrying about the future, but also not ceasing to be proactive on my behalf about short term challenges. Like the fact that in one month I am going to be jobless. I feel….......optomistic though….....I feel, like my own efforts at creating opportunity and recognizing the right ones as some present themselves to me in the NOW will provide me with possibilities. I aim to stay OPEN. And positive. Something will come up….......like I’ve said, the Universe provides but appreciates collaboration. I’ll be doing my best as collaborator; I prefer to be the arbiter of my own fate, but recognize that mine is not the only universal force in play here….....

Thank goodness for that small part of me that is a PollyAnna. I should build a shrine to her…........LOL!

Anybody want to hire me as shrine builder to special or sacred aspects of your inner being??? I’ll only bill you the cost of the flight to your area and for materials. :~D

i am here.

now.

A few weeks ago I posted about how if I stepped back, and stopped feeling pressure to figure certain things out with a certain amount of time that clearing my head and inner agenda this way may allow new options to unfold or present themselves, things that I wasn’t seing clearly or noticing. Well!! In fact they have!! They are!!

I am glad to have had the wherewithall to move out of my own way. And to just start afresh by taking it day to day w/regard to these things…...........it has made a difference…......even in the span of two weeks time. Me getting out of my own way allowed forward progression. And renewed optimism.

I have several important decisions that need to be made within the next few months. I have been feeling pressure to “figure it all out” ASAP. It has occurred to me that if I stopped trying so hard to figure it all out, new solutions and options may arise that I had as yet not considered. And I have asked myself “What’s the worst thing or things that could happen if you don’t figure it all out?” Will the world stop spinning on it’s axis? No. Will I miss out on some opportunities if I make certain choices and not others? Most definately. At this point though, I am willing to look at these issues only on a day to day basis, rather than projecting too far ahead to try to view or influence outcomes. I can’t live like that right now. I am already tired enough, having experienced a summer of sleep deprivation due to noisy neighbors. I really want to focus more on the day in front of me, the true present, than 2 or 3 months from now. I know, inherently, and always have, that everthing works out in the end, as it is supposed to. I just need to remind myself of that more frequently lately. Like, daily…...........

Be
Here
Now…..........

Present.
In the Moment.

this is ROUGH for me. i’m ALWAYS dwelling on the future and where i’m trying to get to. hard for me to truly enjoy the present.

i occasionally do volunteer translations for a charity—letters from sponsored children to their sponsors in germany and vice versa. i have to quote from this letter from China (translated by a Chinese volunteer into English). it’s so sad but lovely.

“Dear Mrs S.
How are you. Thank you for your letter.
I am happy for receiving your photo. You have golden hair, brown eyes, red mouth and white skin. You are pretty.
I have many troubles recently. My friend had a quarrel with me. I don’t know what I did wrongly. I don’t know how to deal with it. The teachers give me much pressure in study. I seldom speak every day. The final exam is coming, and I am worried about it. I have to get a good score to prove I have ability to my parents.
It is a lucky that I have many good friends.
I like star and moon. I talk with moon and star when I have unhappy things. I share my happiness with them too. Maybe you will ask what I should do when there is no moon or star at day. I will talk with sky and ask sky to transmit my words. Their light is answer to me.
Please see the sky or star when you receive my letter, and they are my gifts to you.
Please take good care of yourself even if you are busy with work.”

ooooooh, bless!