I learned that I’ve been chosen to participate in a work-related activity that I expect will both be an enjoyable experience as well as enhancing some particular skills. So now I’m trying to “just be with it” in the moment, rather than allowing various fears & worries to cloud the joy that I did feel when I learned yesterday that I’ve been selected as one of the thirty participants in the state for the workshop this summer. 1 month ago

The funeral will be tomorrow (I am sooooo sad).

I hope it will help (me & everyone else).

Re-reading my goal entry from last spring (the most recent previous loss), I realized an almost incredible coincidence:

THEN: “This morning I held a baby (a co-worker’s son, now eight weeks old [—& named after his grandfather].”

&

NOW: “This evening I held a baby (a co-worker’s daughter, now twelve weeks old—& named after her grandmother).”

Both times I was offered the chance to hold the baby (life) on the same day that the loss (death) occurred.

And so it goes….4 months ago

This morning at work we learned that a young associate – with whom I’d been working closely since August – died last night. I was able to talk with two close colleagues shortly after learning the news, & an EAP grief counselor will be making the rounds this afternoon. But really, I’m still just in shock….

A horrid reminder (as if I’d needed it!) to … Be. Here. Now.4 months ago

This morning I held a baby (a co-worker’s son, now eight weeks old).

This evening I said goodbye to a friend (a sangha member, just two years older than I am).

Both are reminders to … Be. Here. Now.13 months ago

I’ve written here, previously, about the plaque that I’ve noticed on several colleagues’ desks, the plaque engraved with:

“Be Here Now“

Yesterday, someone I work with gave me my own copy of it!

grin3 years ago