It made me

HAPPY

How I did it: i always wanted to live in such ways as to appreciate it at the time AND later with hindsight, but life is TOUGH TOO. after a huge life crisis, with recurrent suicidal experiences (intermixed with happiness), i rolled up my sleeves and set goals and measured progress over days, weeks, months, years. goal-setting, reality checks, self-discovery, re-adjustments, and CLARITY in my mind where keys. recently (winter 2012-2013) i can finally say that despite the crazy world and events that frequently "attack" my well-being, EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE RECENTLY, I APPROVE. it's the end of a long path in which i progressed from making more mistakes to more (and recently ALL) "yes, i'm happy i did that" Read how I did it… 3 months ago