be a fitness instructor

i thought about doing this about a year ago. i actually chickened out. i was too depressed actually to go and i couldnt ull myself togther. i value workingout and have bursts where i can get quite obsessed with it. now time has passed and my life is completely different. i am differnt in many ways. i remember the days of popping in a workout VHS video tape and diligently work through the burn. the muscle man encouraging me on the tv screen said in his accent, “feel the burn, how much do you want it? do you really want it?” and yes, i really wanted it, i wanted to have the best legs. somehow i thought that if i had amazing legs, no one would question why i was so bookish, or maybe they wouldnt even notice i was bookish. bookishly glad i was bookish, even. i had my routine of carrot celery sticks, apples, a can of tuna in olive oil a day, seven pickles, whole wheat toast only in the wee early mornings, and no eating, absolutely no eating after 630, or 6 depending on the occasion coming up that i wanted to look good for. those were the days of short skirts, showing off my well toned stomach, and perfectly cut shirts and pants/skirts to show off the fact that i ate steamed broccoli while everyone weaker than me ate processed foods and hamburgers—thoughtlessly. no no no i had tact, i had bravado, i had a sense of sacrifice and with my perfectly fit clothes, i showed it off. oh how times have changed. 2004/05 is a long way away, and yet, history repeats itself and i am getting back into the idea that it is good to be healthy, and yes, it is okay once again to feel the burn and not run from everything that doesnt include being perpetually and fabulously lazy.

i want to be a fitness instructor for multiple reasons. yes yes i bvery much like helping people. however more specifically i think it is a good skill to have and i am all about being a resource, and having great skills and special know how. also, it is a way of maintaining a balanced or great mood (endorphins). furthermore!! with all of these posh apartment communities popping up, it would strengthen my worth to an employer.

This one’s definitely a long term goal. I’d love to eventually teach a yoga or step class, not only because I’d be helping other people to achieve their own fitness goals, but also because it would keep me focused on technique.