Be More Laid Back

definately had a laid back day at uni today…a lot different from last year just gotta keep it up

im a bit more laid back at work now. rather then constantly tryin to do everything all the time

I want to travel and i have learned that the best travel experiences happen when nothing is planned or there is no plan to the trip you just sort of wing it. I believe that becoming more laid back, i will experience more and live life fuller. I am uptight to much and with the wrong things and i am laid back about the wrong things also. Ex:Money HELP!

I need to learn to be more laid back. I find myself dwelling on things to the point where i make moutains out of molehills and create problems that weren’t there in the first place. For example i started a new relationship and all i’ve done so far is second guess him as if he has ulterior motives, presume straight away i’m being lied to, go on and on about things and as a result i almost lost him last night, granted there were a lot of crossed wires but it was me that created them in the first place by constantly thinking he’s not interested etc, fortunately he’s given me another chance to turn it all around and yet i’m dwelling now as we speak that he’s probably having second thoughts or will chuck me anyway even if i can fix things. I dwell on things so much and go over and over it thinking about things that can’t be answered until it makes me physically ill. Sure, i realise i’ve been hurt several times recently by people but this shouldn’t be an issue, i shouldn’t even presume to believe that one person, thing or situation is the same as another.

What bothers me the most is i never used to be this bad, of course i’d have my moments just like anyone else but i was never this bad and it was never this frequent. I just don’t know how to break these bad thought cycles. I have tried meditation and talking sense into myself which does work for a brief period of time but not enough to have any lasting beneficial effect.

The worst part of it is that it doesn’t just effect me, it effects the people around me too that have to listen to me going into these… almost neurotic ramblings about things that i have little or no control over which then manifest themselves into real problems.

I think i need sedating lol.

I’ll be honest:
When I did heroin I felt like I was the coolest person on earth. Nothing could phase me. I was confident on the verge of cocky, I was disturbingly good at everything I did, everyone thought I was charming for some reason, and I was never crazy, jittery or anxious. When I was a stoner, I was cool but a little crazy and didn’t really care if I was confident or not. Now I don’t do drugs and I’m anxious as hell, feel crazy, sometimes sound crazy, ....I’m essentially Woody Allen on speed. But I’m not uptight. The one good thing is that I’m not uptight…
I just want to be the classic cool I once was, that’s all.
But you know, without the thousands of dollars worth of drugs.
Sex seems to help, but what do I do the rest of the day/night?

p.s. I’m a girl. [if that matters…?]

I need to stress less and get blood pressure down

the trick is being selective as to what you freak out about.

my problem is, i have no tolerance for people who arent as driven as me. stupidity and apathy make me so frustrated, it hinders my success. people tell me i need to chill out, and i brush it off, but i know they’re right. any thoughts on how to let other people’s lack of modivation not bother me as much?

chill the fuck out – i think it would make life more easy – i want an easy life!!

I get so frustrated and work at random things, at random times. It gets to the point where I have to concentrate fully on these silly little things, only to realise how stupid i’d been a day later.

What’s worse, is when I get frustrated when I’m at work. It gets to the point where I nearly walk out, simply to deal with what’s in my head.

Fair enough, there are things (such as rumours or news about certain people) which I need to take seriously, or require me to ‘get my head sorted’, but it’s the stupid, worthless things which I need to stop over-analyzing.