Love more generously

So the hard truth is that my boyfriend and I are finally done, after two years of continual struggle. A better decision for us both, but a hard one.

I was having such a hard time being excited about anything, or interested in anything, because it was so draining. And that’s no way to love anyone more generously, let alone myself or even him.

We don’t work, his chidhood issues of abuse are too deep, and the best way to love generously is to let go of “us”.

And focus on loving myself and my faithful friends and taking lots of baths, making lots of soul-healing meals.

And I’m tired of being afraid of being hurt. It doesn’t lead anywhere, and creates it’s own mistrust.