Balance

I haven’t really been doing anything concrete about this goal, haven’t made any new daily schedules etc, but I have noticed that my perspective and attitude towards this balancing act has improved a whole lot. I don’t feel like it’s a burden anymore, it’s more like an exciting challenge. I think that has been a very important, big step for me. It has already helped a great deal. I am now confident that I’ll get this to work well, and that it won’t be unbearably hard after all. I’ve already started my work here.
I’m also feeling more and more balanced each passing day, but there is of course still a lot of work to be done. That doesn’t scare me, though.

What a weekend… looking back it seems I simply stopped at one point and am just now regaining awareness again.

Okay, I don’t mean to over-dramatize here… what happened was that we got the combination of weather my body is apparently least equipped to handle: Heat, Super-high humidity and no sun. I can handle any two of those, but apparently not all of them at once. The result was instant zombification.

What it meant though was that I didn’t get the relaxation or the sleep I had hoped for. On top of that everything I had meant to do has piled up and is starting to take on a mountain-like shape.

Well, it’s better now, at least it was sunny today and I feel more like myself. Now I’m trying to balance work with starting to tackle that mountain. One step at a time…

from work as is happening lately sure messes up my day. I can hardly manage anything at home anymore.

What adds to the feeling of frustration is that most of my time at work seems to be spent with dealing with peripheral stuff, not my main task.

Whine, whine ;)

my stress level reached a new peak, it wasn’t pretty… I guess the good thing is that a peak means it had to get less again today – which it did.

I now want to make a list of things I can do, without much planning, that are known stress-reducers, so I have something in hand, for the next time this threatens to happen.

I have neglected these areas for a few months. When I was active in yoga and meditation, I saw numerous benefits in mood, insight and a sense of peace.

Putting Yoga and Meditation back into daily practice. I can easily fit these in, just need the discipline to do so.

my workload increased several weeks back, I have for the most part not been able to follow any of my goals. And it doesn’t look like this will lessen anytime soon.

I end up not having any time and/or energy left on workdays. And I need the weekends to simply recover.

I have been trying to compensate by planning little getaways on some weekends. This has certainly helped, I’m sure I’d be worse now otherwise. But it doesn’t seem to last very long.

At the moment I am at a loss on ways to find more balance between work and home.

This is why I have joined this goal now. I hope this will prompt me to think about solutions on a more conscious level.

I will not dwell on flaws. This never does anything for me.

In the beginning I was quite worried about this balancing act, but now I’m feeling much more at ease with the whole thing. I feel good about balancing my life, I’m confident about making things work. And not just work, but to work well. People’s lifes are filled with balancing and it’s an ongoing process, but I think I can achieve a good balance at some point and stick to it.
I’m on the right path.

I play online poker. It is my place of zen.

Sometimes I make stupid mistakes, and, unlike in my real life, I move past them with a deep breath. When I do something right, I feel good about it, and allow myself to feel acomplished.

My rule is, “Don’t be stupid.” I think about every hand, and if I make several stupid mistakes in a row, instead of beating myself up, I catch myself on the fact that I have stopped thinking, and my actions have become autonomous.

I am trying to learn to be considerate of others, to wait my turn to speak, and to think about my words before I say them, but if I slip and say something I might regret, I will know that it is really for the same reason.

Anything that has been lost through blunders can be regained through thought. Regret may even be remedied by experience and time.

I enjoy life as poker. I assume this sounds silly. :)

turned out to be an excellent thing for me – a lot of things have already fallen into place, my mind is clearer and I’m feeling good. :) On the train ride here, last night, I kept brainstorming and all these lovely ideas filled my mind. I’ll make this balance thing work, I’m feeling optimistic and excited about it now!