be less afraid

This is going to be my guideline next year.

Being bold, being less afraid, being less concerned what people think of me.

I may lose some friends but then again, I may gain some.

It’s not that I don’t feel fear. I feel it, but I push ahead anyway. This may make me end up in embarrassing or hurtful situations, but right now I prefer going for things and failing, than sitting it out and wondering.

I’m terrified of talking on the phone, I know it sounds weird, but english is not my fist language, and it always scares me that people won’t understand me! ( which never happens..)
So just now, 5 minutes ago i did it! I called my old college to transfer my credits so I can finish College soon! well..I just pushed myself to do it. I’m also scared to deal with difficult people and difficult situations..but such is life so I’m trying my best to beat this fear, baby steps every day..

I am afraid of loads of things, mainly flying and it’s so life limiting, planning a wedding next year and i have to start thinking about the honeymoon but i get panic attacks at the thought of flying. I wanted an outdoor pursuits weekend for the hen do but it’s caving or gorge walking which both involve wedging myself in tight places – i am claustrphobic!! I also have a fire traiing course next week which invovles my being stuck in a room of smoke in pitch black and find my own way out!!!

I know what it all boils down to is the simple fact that i’ve an intense fear of dying before i’m ready, and i’m simply not ready…that’s my ultimate fear i don’t know where to begin with this!!!

I’m afraid of heights which limits many things like rides and high hotels and airplanes. I’m afraid to go for my goals and going to college. I’m afraid of letting go of my childhood were my parents did everything for me (pay bills, provide things). I’m afraid i wont find mr right and when i do im afraid the relationship wont last. I’m afraid of cashing out by myself like paying 4 things. I dont know y my body just freaks and then i get teased. I wish i wasnt so afraid to tell people how i really feel instead of keeping it bottled inside. I’m afarid of the impression i leave on people and im afraid i won’t make any friends and that im not as preety as someone else. bottom line this world is scary….i just wish i could chill and i wish i didn’t have mild anxiety.

i’m checking this off, cuz i’ve gotten waaay better at handling situations. and what am i afraid of anyways?

and it feels great

I would like to be less scared, but I don’t really know how. I’m scared to do things on my own, especially when I have to speak to someone I don’t know. Maybe start easy, like asking someone in the supermarket where I can find product … and when that goes well, go on and do something harder… I’ll let you know…

recently i have been a million times more confident in myself, making me less afraid. i find it easier to talk to people and i am a lot more outgoing.

I don’t think that there are enough drugs or psychotherapy to fix this