not be afraid of commitment

I’ve been dating a great guy for a few months now and we’re completely inseparable. The other day he asked me if I was happy dating him and for the first time, I gave an honest answer to that question. Yes, more than I have been in a long time. We annoy the shit out of each other, he pushes my buttons and I “bully” him, haha. All in all, I’m having a fantastic time with him and think this could go somewhere. If it doesn’t, I’ll be sad because he’s a great guy but he’s helped me open up so much that I know it’s ok to do so now and feel comfortable being my goofy self. It’s a nice change from hiding my emotions and reminicsing on old loves. I really hope that everyone will have this feeling at one point in their lives. It’s great to wake up in the morning next to someone you love spending time with. And who’s drooling on themselves…

:)

i think im afraid to commit in a relationship
i really dont want to be afraid cos im in a relationship n its gonna be a month in 3 days. n 1 month and 1 week is the longest iv been in a relationship cos i was scared so i let go. i really dont want that to happen with this relationship cos i like him heaps

Sigh. This one’s going to be very tough.

Well, I kinda made a commitment toward a boy last night. He brought up dating me and I agreed. Now all I really need to get by is the whole talking thing, cause now it seems we don’t have anything to talk about.. And the whole drunk thing.

Just not sure if I will be a good girlfriend.

3 months this week. yay

so, im still scared as hell.

this scares me more than failing.