find the motivation to accomplish my goals

for right now, I’m motivated and happy! Maybe the key is to try to pace myself when I’m feeling this way. I don’t seem to have a lot of “in between” times. I’m either REALLY UP, like now; or I feel the world is coming to an end. Why can’t I just feel “okay” for a time? Basically, I’ve been content just to slog on through the down times, because I know they won’t last.

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Woopsie- spelling error – The correct spelling eluded me, not “illuded” me. Thus “illusive” should be elusive. ah… MUCH BETTER NOW.

Today was one of the roughest days that I’ve encountered in months! A few weeks ago I finally found the conviction to stick to my diet so my first step is to stop eating fast food… easier said than freakin done! Today I had a poster presentation at school and it fell apart, so during my drive home I was dying for comfort from McDonalds or pastries from Tim Horton’s. I had to vehemently fight the urge to drown my sorrows in fatty food and I damn-near lost the battle, it was so depressing. I actually started crying in frustration because the temptation was overwhelming. I can’t believe that I let myself get this over-weight, and the fact that I’m struggling to keep my mouth closed makes me realize how weak I truly am.

Need some engine work, but things’ll get better.

I am well on my way to achieving this goal! I’ve been working out, running, eating healthier, spending quality time with Mr. Wonderful, attending all of my lectures (paying attention too!!!), and staying abreast in regard to my homework assignments and readings. A few days ago my motivation level was at a 2, but now it has soared to an encouraging 7 out of 10. Yippy, in a few weeks I’ll be able to mark off a substantial amount of goals from my list! I’ll just keep chanting “I think I can” until my motivation level is at a solid 10.