smile_itsmegan is slowly becoming happier (:
my dad has always been a huge workaholic, that was kind of his main priority; being the money maker for my fam. growing up it wasnt really that bad, i was still a huge daddy’s girl. yeah, it sucked not having him around some holidays, but for the most part he was there enough. plus my mom was always around for the times when he couldnt be. i never really realized how much i relied on her until about a year ago when she died. and now that my dad is the only parent, its like i need him there for me alot more; and i guess he isnt really used to that. ever since my mom passed away alot has changed.. my dad and i arent as close anymore, and it hurts.. sometimes it seems like work and not to mention, his new girlfriend, come before me alot more than they should. i dont want to sound selfish, or like an attention craving 17 yr old.. but i just really wish me and my dad could be closer :/ i know that its gonna take work though. but im willing to do whatever it takes.
