Changed my night routine to fit my sleeping, not otherwise. 12 months ago

now, wake up from early insomnia after toilet, thoughts coming in, pursing emotion with things happened in day time, some uncomfortable feeling disturbing me that i pretended to be dont know or that old fart just thought i’m naive to be funny around.
i saw some girls set 1smiling to everyone including stranger’ as a goal. sometimes, even a kind, friendly smiling seems to be a mistake (eventhough it’s a good things to do), because it brings u shits! f@#$%ing shits, REAL F@#$%ing SHITS!
so, how to live gracefully?!
The wise saying says that it’s not wise to get angry.
I won’t compromise to all this sudden shits anymore just because i’m nice.
yeah, thay said the world is like a mirror, when u smiling to it, it smiling back to u. yeah, it even harass u.
so FUCK all the crap BS cliche!
just a big lie and big BS.
i just need to deal with all these shits because i’m nice! 13 months ago