The past three nights I have not slept well. I’ve curled up in bed for hours each night, finally dozing off for a two or three hours before my alarm goes off. I am exhausted. 6 months ago
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I slept in my own bed two out of the three nights so far this month xD
I cleaned up my room and got the laundry out of it, and stopped taking my serious calls in my bedroom and instead take them in the bathroom haha. I put up the scarves, and hung the pictures on the wall and it is starting to feel like a bedroom and I’ve made a point of only being in the room to change and to sleep.
Sooo, it’s been okay. I ended up sleeping on the couch last night, but thats because I ended up going to bed after my husband instead of at the same time, because we had gotten in a small tiff… and then when I joined him he was sprawled all across the bed and I couldn’t get comfortable, so I moved to the couch.
The couch is my go to spot, when I can’t fall asleep. It never fails, five minutes on the couch and I am out for the night. It’s the way I fall asleep the quickest.
Anyway, two out of three nights doesn’t seem like that big of an accomplishment, but it is.
If I can make it at least 25 days a month for at least three months straight, sleeping in my own bed, I’ll mark this complete. It’s a long process xD lets see if I can get there. 6 months ago
I want to sleep well in my own bed. I had problems with insomnia as a pre-teen, but with time and help I managed to over come that.
Now as an adult, it has been resurfacing.
I go to bed and toss and turn for three or four hours before getting fed up and getting out of bed and reading.
I learned a few days ago, that I can fall asleep on that couch. Anytime. Easy. As soon as I lay down on the couch, I am out. Which is very strange because my couch is not very comfortable.
I just want to be able to sleep in my bed. Sleep long and sleep well in my own room, in my own bed. 7 months ago
now, wake up from early insomnia after toilet, thoughts coming in, pursing emotion with things happened in day time, some uncomfortable feeling disturbing me that i pretended to be dont know or that old fart just thought i’m naive to be funny around.
i saw some girls set 1smiling to everyone including stranger’ as a goal. sometimes, even a kind, friendly smiling seems to be a mistake (eventhough it’s a good things to do), because it brings u shits! f@#$%ing shits, REAL F@#$%ing SHITS!
so, how to live gracefully?!
The wise saying says that it’s not wise to get angry.
I won’t compromise to all this sudden shits anymore just because i’m nice.
yeah, thay said the world is like a mirror, when u smiling to it, it smiling back to u. yeah, it even harass u.
so FUCK all the crap BS cliche!
just a big lie and big BS.
i just need to deal with all these shits because i’m nice!
3/4/2012 2 years ago