go to more AA meetings

Lately I’ve been wanting to isolate and not go to as many (or any, for that matter) meetings. So I’m making myself go to one a day at the minimum, although today I think I’ll go to the 5:30 as well as the Saturday night meeting. I have too much fun going, and it’s my depression telling me not to go, and I have to involve myself in meetings and in life. Suiting up and showing up.

Tomorrow I’ll be doing things ALL day, with no time between for AA meetings, so I’ve planned to wake up early so that I can go to the early morning Eye Opener meeting. Here’s to 90 meetings in 90 days!

I love AA.
I love the fellowship.
I love reading my Big Book, even though I need to do it more.
I go to at least one AA meeting a day, usually two or three.
I love my sponsor.
I love my NA literature guide.
I love the gratitude that I feel whenever I go to an AA meeting.
I love and treasure and am grateful for my sobriety.
I love speaking at meetings, before the meeting, and after the meeting.
I love listening.
I love the friendships I’ve developed in the program.
Rigorous Honesty is changing my life.

I need to remember the above whenever I feel like using or drinking, because the risk of taking that drink is not worth the reward.

Felt so good. I’m so glad I’m back in AA. Got a lot of support and love today.

I had to take five days away from meetings because of some personal drama, but today I can go to a meeting, and it’s my favorite meeting. I’m a bit nervous because of who might be there and what might be said, but my sponsor is faithfully trudging along with me, that beautiful woman in her ferragamo’s, wool sweater, and beautiful white hair. I’m so happy!

I go to so many meetings every day.

Things I’ve done

+ I have a sponsor, I keep in daily contact with her through email, meetings, and phone-calls.
+ I went on a women’s AA retreat.
+ I’ve gone to a TON of AA meetings – at least two a day, usually three and sometimes four.
+ I’ve practiced the 12th step and reached my hand out to other suffering alcoholics, and one of them grasped it. I motivated a kid to get a sponsor today when he was too scared to ask, and he got one!
+ I’ll chair a meeting every monday in february – I’m signed up and ready to go.
+ I’ve chaired a meeting at my homegroup.
+ I’ve fellowshipped with a lot of AA members.
+ I have balance in my life now – it’s not just AA, it’s also my work, family, and AA. AA is the foundation, sobriety lets me have my work and my family, but AA is not the only thing in my life.
+ I’m going on a sledding trip on Saturday with my fellow AA’s.
+ I’m submitting a video through my General Service Representative to the HQ’s for the sober-under-25 project.

LIFE IS GOOD!!!

I got a sponsor. :)

32 meetings since I started this goal – 32 meetings in 11 days!

It’s been overwhelming BUT great.

Oh well, I made it to the 12:00 (drove all the way to another state in less than 15 minutes – probably shouldn’t have sped), will be going to the 5:30 and the 8:00. Three is good, I just wanted to hit four a day because they really are nourishing my soul.

Here’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever gotten from AA

My Daily Moral Inventory:

Liabilities: Watch for
- self-pity
- self-importance
- self-condemnation
- rationalization
- dishonesty
- impatience
- anger
- resentment
- isolation
- jealousy
- envy
- laziness
- procrastination
- insincerity
- negative thinking
- unhealthy thinking
- criticizing

assets: strive for
- caring for others
- modesty
- self-valuation
- accepting responsibility
- honesty
- patience
- tolerance
- forgiveness
- participation
- trust
- generosity
- diligence
- promptness
- openness
- gratitude
- healthy thinking
- looking for the good