rely on myself

how can i rely on myself when i am trying to be a teenager and do alot of fun things. Ever sinve i was nine year old i have dont mich of fun. i have to grow up an act like a adult but now i can be a kid. so help to rely on my self without acting like a adult please.

alright, i think it is a rather good plan in general, but, it must be done carefully. relying on yourself doesn’t mean that others are shoved aside.
i, personally, have gone a bit too far.

Now I feel more alone than ever.

When you rely on yourself, you realize thaqt everything that happens is your fault. You finally see that no one else is to blame.

At this point it isn’t so much a choice. So…I don’t think it counts. No one really cares. I do rely on inatimate objects though. Material things because there is nothing else. Isn’t it sad that I can’t rely on myself because I’m afraid I’ll fail? Yeah…well…needless to say…I’m working on it.

I want to stop taking care of everyone and take really great care of myself.