lose weight once and for all

Can’t seem to get my butt in gear. Why is it so difficult?

Here is the deal. Weight watchers called, not a joke people, I mean, they called me at work. Are they stalking me and can they see all the chocolate wrappers I try (too many to actually accomplish the task) to hide in my garbage? I figure this is a message. So one last chow down with the girls over some incredibly delicious (high sugar) drinks and then to WW tomorrow morning (aprés my run ; )

35 yr old married woman with 12 yr daughter with a full time job is desperately seeking 21 yr old sexy self. Okay, okay… let’s be realistic here. I can accept that I’m never going to be 21 again or have that (plz allow me this – awesome) body, but i cannot accept that this is it.

I’m that woman, the woman who is getting older but can’t accept that she should no longer be desirable. I want to feel good in my skin. I miss the confidence I had when I wasn’t worried about how fat I look. I am the woman who refuses to buy bigger clothes and struggles every morning to fit into a way too small pair of pants and need to find a baggy top to cover it up. I sit on the couch and hold a pillow over my belly so as to hide the blubber (as if that will do it!).

And I write all this, as I chow down a bag of dark chocolate covered cranberries. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way, and I decided to put it out there. This is me and this is my goal and I am going do it (once and for all)... so here is to perseverance.

“The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground.” ~Author Unknown

I’m not going to be fat at 50!

simply by going from vegetarian to vegan. Now am in size 8 pants where previously 14!

Been using ediets for menu ideas and exercise routines. Not bad, now I just need to keep sticking with it.

I think I’m going to sign up for swimming. With straining my back so badly everything else is hurting…. I think the only way is to get more activity. If i go once a day to the pool and do 3/4 of an hour worth of some sort of gentle exercise, then I’ll get ahead in the game….

I’ve been staying away from chocolate bars in the last few weeks. VERY tough to do! I’ve tried to eat at least one veggie and fruit a day. I’m not doing bad that way. I was eating either two fruits or two veggies but not one of each. Very hard to get regular eating patterns when my life is so irregular. I joined a walking/hiking club and I’ve also purchsed walking poles, hiking shoes and a camelback water reservoir. This Tuesday I start. Hopefully I can keep up with the others.

I joined ediets a couple of months ago. It is helping (I’ve lost around 10#). It gives you menus (a huge choice of menu styles) and workouts. There are also message boards. They give you a shopping list for the week too. I recommend it. I’m down to 136

I have been eating more vegetables and fruit lately. Trying to eat a little bit more healthy than I have been.

I’ve also joined a walking group a couple weeks ago but I haven’t gone to an outing yet. I had strained my back a month ago and also I strained my leg almost two weeks ago. But my leg is now better and I bought walking sticks yesterday.