Muriel is realizing her life circumstances.
Struggling — 3 months ago
I’m finding it very difficult to want to work. There are times when I’m completing a task and feeling very good about it all because – well – it feels good to be productive.
Other times, I just want to have it all rot away so that I don’t have to do or think or plan. I’m not going to say I worry, but it really doesn’t feel all that great when you need to work this much and the free time is like a guilt trip.
You should be working, Muriel. Why are you sitting there, watching re-runs of Wings?
P works much harder than I do – and he would do it without a single break if I wasn’t around. I don’t know how he does it really; I think he can see our future better than I. He knows he’s working so hard for what we want in our life, and I feel like I’m working (or procrastinating) so hard for nothing.
As if I’m wasting my life away.




