is wrong with some people?! I’ve been to look at two potential houseshares today, well I say two…
The first was lovely, nice landlady, beautiful house, amazing kitchen and massive bathroom. Nice. Said I was interested, need to wait til a few more people have checked it out, blah blah blah.
Second house, nothing. Stood outside it ringing the doorbell, knocking on the door. No answer. Excuse me…what?! People were clearly in, the house was lit up like a Christmas tree. How bloody rude. It’s put me in a right funk.
However, in the spirit of make it work I’m going to view it as somewhere that wasn’t meant to be. I didn’t have a great feeling about it anyway but this sealed the deal. I suppose that should be a positive. Somewhere better will appear and then it won’t even matter. It’s just stressful trying to find a place to live, gr!
How to make it work
How I did it: I changed everything I didn't love about myself. Even the things I just liked about myself-I took it all away and added back the things after thinking about if I wanted them or not.
Lessons & tips:
If you're unhappy with where you are or what you've become, re-invent yourself as what you want to be. You're happiness is worth whatever the price will be.
Don't be afraid to buck convention and protocol. Be selfish without hurting others. Your real friends will respect you for it. I had to re-evaluate and remove some "friends" and it really made me appreciate the friends I have. I feel as if a great weight has been lifted from my shoulders. You will find that the things that were important to you are no longer so. This is ok.
Resources: Honestly there's so much that brought me to this point. I think honest introspection will be your best guide. Other than that, find exemplars of what you want and "fake it until you make it"
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OK, so I’m a massive Project Runway fan and the cherry on the cake of what is generally an ace show anyway, is Tim Gunn. Those in the know will be aware of his catchphrase ‘make it work’, usually uttered when he’s faced with a hot mess of a design.
So I thought I’d take his mantra and use it as a goal for when I’m faced with a hot mess of a situation. This will be a place to maybe rant, get things off my chest, and most importantly, work through how I’m going to make it work.
PinkCoffeeMug is a Self-Knowing Self-Improving Builder
I am determined to keep my already-great relationship with Stephen great forever. I want to make it work, and I def. want to keep what we have as good as it can possibly be.
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I found this cute picture of us from the summer, from the time when we first met. I think we look adorable with our band T-shirts and blue eyes, hah.
I met Heikki briefly when I went to Helsinki to see Marilyn Manson on the 20th, he bought me hot chocolate, we chatted and he gave me a lift to the concert hall. He seemed genuinely happy that I was doing good, that made me feel really warm and nice inside. He’s a great friend, I’m really glad to have him. We’re so alike, it’s weird; I never thought it would/could be a boy who’d be so similar and so in-tune with me.
He mentioned wanting to meet again soon, I hope we can figure something out. I’d like to see him soon too, to have a nice long chat and do something fun together with him. Last time I was in such a hurry – friends deserve and earn more time.
(And the poor thing didn’t get any Christmas presents. :c I’m going to give him something when he comes to visit me next time~)
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Heikki came over today. (:
I showed him around our flat, we talked and drank juice and played ruthless Kimble (1 – 1) and watched the Simpsons.
I’m glad he’s my friend, it’s nice to do stuff with him. It doesn’t even have to be anything special, it’s just fun to be around him.
In the end, we are quite similar.
And yeah, I think we can make this friendship work just fine. n _ n
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Heikki apologized some time ago and we’re ok now.
I just talked to him on the phone and I’m really happy that things are fine with us again.
Our fight did have one positive side effect: I am no longer by any means attracted to him. It does make everything much easier.
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He’s not tired of me, he said so. I made him promise that if/when he does get fed up with me he’ll tell me. He promised, though he told me that he normally doesn’t have the tendency to get tired of people he appreciates and likes.
That’s settled then~ n _ n
I’m really going to try harder to be more relaxed about this. I don’t need to worry about this, I really don’t.
I hate it when I’m being fussy over this, I need to learn to control myself better when it comes to these things.
(Oh but don’t get me wrong, luckily I’m not concerned about him all the time. :D I don’t spend my days just fretting about this, I simply have some bad moments. I just seem to write only about and during those moments; I guess I should do something about that, eh. :P)
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Yep, I’m still paranoid, very much so. I just can’t seem to help it.
I’m convinced that he’s going to get tired of me any minute now. :/ Actually, I think he already is, but he just doesn’t want to tell me.
Sometimes I’m quite bitter over the fact that I am a girl.
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I’ve never had boys as friends before so I think I’m overanalyzing everything. :X
I need to learn how to stop it and just “go with the flow”. Because I don’t fret this much over my friend-girls. :D
