quit drinking

I put myself through an alcohol binge a few days ago and it cost me monumentally. In fact, I pushed away the absolute best thing that ever happened to me and what’s worse is that I also killed all hope of ever getting it back. The pain and loss that I caused will always serve as a stinging reminder to stay sober and while my confidence in sobriety is at a ridiculous alltime high, I feel zero happiness as I sit and type. The happiness will come with time, I know, but learn a lesson from me 43:

Take care of those you love.
Put the bottle down.
Get help.

Have a safe 4th weekend, everyone.

Given my introversion, I thought I would be really nervous about attending my first AA meeting. Surprisingly, however, I felt pretty good. I was more nervous about finding the right location and showing up on time than I was about the actual meeting!

I live in a small town, so naturally the group was rather small. I suppose there were 13 or 14 folks. I just knew I’d see someone that I knew or recognized, but I didn’t. Tonight the focus was on Tradition 12. Because I haven’t really studied the steps, etc. yet, I didn’t really get a lot out of the meeting itself, but I know I will with time. However, I had a great talk with my sponsor after the meeting. Actually, from the moment I walked in, I really enjoyed his demeanor, so I was thrilled when he volunteered to sponsor me! He insisted on paying for my Big Book and we talked a bit about why I decided to come to AA. I mentioned that I have had some success on solo sobriety tours, but that the ups and downs were becoming too much. And I told him that I knew someone who was having success with AA (you know who you are), so I thought I’d give it a try as well.

When I got to my car, tears just welled up in my eyes because I realized more deeply than ever what a broken person I am. But I also realized that I am finally on the road to recovery, not just with drinking, but with so many things in life. As I drove away, an incredible, almost tangible rush of confidence washed over me. I don’t wonder if AA will help. I KNOW. And I don’t wonder if I’ll have success with AA, I KNOW. My determination to be sober coupled with the support of like-minded folks is a sure fire recipe for success.

When times are tough, I have always found comfort and encouragement in the following verses:

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phillipians 4:13

If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31

During the past year or so, I have somehow managed a couple of semi-lengthy solo sobriety tours. However, I am laying down my guns, stepping outside of my introversion and independent nature, and I am going to delve deeply into external support.

I have been contemplating this delving for several weeks now, and I have decided that 7/1 is an excellent choice of date. After all, 7/1 is the beginning of a new year, fiscally, at least (I have budgets to prove it) and 7/1 is really close to my biological birthday of 7/3. So, is there anything better than to celebrate two birthdays 48 hours apart?

Also, my local AA happens to be meeting on New Year’s Day, 7/1. Marvelous! I’ll keep you posted.

My head ache finally went away and slowly getting my appetite back =) Had to keep my self busy all day but so far so good. One thing on my mind though, I’m getting married on the 4th of July. Any thoughts about dodging all the shots?

I decided to quit drinking. My drinking had gotten out of hand. Weekend drinking – shots, beer, wine….I told my boyfriend of 5 years that I had decided to quit drinking. His response “Does that mean I have to quit too?”
I was hurt mostly.

Any thoughts

Here goes. Just wanted to announce here that i quit drinking. Hopefully this site will help keep me accountable. I still have a headache. I know this isn’t going to be easy.

I am new to this venue and not too sure how it works but I have known for some time that I need to get myself together and reach out for help. knowing that you are not alone can be a great suport mechanism.

Sometimes this goal just seems impossible. I don’t know how to do this when times are bad. I’ve had some good stretches of not drinking, went 3 weeks which is huge for me. But recently, I found out I was not invited to my boyfriends daughters wedding and that broke my heart. I understand the situation, but it still hurts. Staying sober under these circumstances is truly rough. What do you do with yourselves when your hurting so bad and just want to run, but there’s no place to go? Any suggestions?

Well, yesteday sucked out loud! Tonight I am running a 50-mile ultrarun in the boonies of NC, so I am hoping to plod all over some of my depressions and issues as I take in the night air and banter with some of my best running friends.