love & live

My niece Montana will stand outside…and scream at the top of her lungs. She’s 3 and she’ll do the sound of a sick elk…and a not sick elk. Haha, too cute.

We decided my boyfriend would finally move here with me in the summer time…then he would be getting two paychecks without having to work…and that would help out a lot.

Ever played that long-trip car game “My Car, Your Car?” I wonder how many kids pass by …look at my car, say “Your car” and the other kid makes a face…because they just got the crap end of the Auto Lottery…

I want the Across the Universe soundtrack.

So, my boyfriend who’s in Georgia sent me a Valentine’s day present. He had sent it one day before Valentine’s day…so I knew it wouldn’t be here soon…probably by Friday or Saturday. Saturday came and passed…nothing. No mail on Sunday (of course) and Monday was a Holiday…so when Tuesday came around, I was ready. Mail lady went around…still nothing.

So, my mom and me are cleaning out cars…when we see a box sitting on the side steps of our porch…an area we never go to. There was my Valentine’s day present sitting on the porch…been put through rain…been there for who knows how long…but I was fuckin’ thrilled. Excuse my language.

My present was a picture frame with a picture of my boyfriend and I when he last visited. And on the outside, he had sanded and glued shells on it that we had picked out the last time he was down. I also got a card and a note from him attached.

I’m lovin’ my present…just wish I could get some hugs, kisses…cuddle time…you know.

I signed up for the Spring semester at the local community college. I attended classes for awhile…and then stopped. I just need a break from all of this. I’ve decided to drop the classes for this semester and take a break the semester after that. I have too much going on right now…too much to do and prepare for. School is important to me, and I will eventually get it over with. All I really want/need is an Associate’s Degree in Art. After that, I’m fine…but I’m burnt out with school.

The only problem with doing this…is my parents. They had paid for the classes, which the amount was only $500 for 4 classes. That’s cheaper than most area’s. I expect to pay them back…I just hope they understand. Doing this will also take me off the insurance seeing as I will no longer be a full time student, but my next job will make up for that within 30 days of being hired.

I really just hope they understand for the most part. I’ve never tried to go against their wishes, and I know school is a big deal to them seeing as they never really finished theirs. I’m pretty sure they won’t be paying for anymore classes in the future, but that’s ok. I can handle that much. I just hope they still love and talk to me and don’t judge me by this. My mom will be the real problem. She’ll be the one to scream bloody murder for it.

Eh, we’ll see, I suppose.

This will never leave the “To Do List” because I believe it takes a lifetime to love and live. This is just to remind me on the hard days on what’s really great in my life. To stop complaining and do something for someone else. To keep my relationships always in good standards. To love unconditionally, even after things go wrong. It’s here to remind me of the times that define why I live. Why I love. After this, there will just be stories of what I believe fit for this goal.