Make a PLAN, pick a DIRECTION, and DO something with my life rather than waiting around for the "What if's"!!

I added this goal to my 43Things a year ago. I had no idea, at the time, that I would reach a point where I could say “I’ve done this”... or what “this” would entail. But the fact is I have. Since deciding on Korea, and as the time approaches (time flies unbelievably fast!) I feel more at peace. This is how I know that I have made the right decision. And everywhere I turn, call it synchronicity, call it ‘fate’, I encounter people who only serve to reinforce my goal and my decision, and to reassure me that I am doing the right thing. I feel like I have a direction. I feel like I am doing something with my life. And I am loving every single minute of it!!! :)

Okay, so while I’m making a plan and picking a direction… I fully realize that there are no real guarantees. My plans could change, due to circumstances, due to the nature of things. I could change in the next year and therefore I may want different things. But I am open to it all. And I think as long as I remain open to change and new things, that is what’s key.
That said, I am not waiting to change. I am just doing it, and living my life. I am doing lots of things that I am happy and satisfied with. And though I wish I had “more time”... (whatever that means)... I suspect it all has a lot to do with the damn winter darkness. Once night falls it feels like the day is done, even though, in reality, it’s only 6 p.m.!

I digress… the point is, I have a tentative plan for Korea next Spring (2008).. and a direction (working towards that goal) and I AM doing something right now with my life, that will help me later in my career, and help me reach my Korea goal. So there you have it. I’m doing this every day! :)

I certainly don’t feel as direction-less and scared as I felt when I added this goal to my list almost a year ago.

It’s 6:05 a.m. and I have to get ready for work. I’m running late for the 4th time this week (it being Thursday and all)... but I realized that though I may not have a concrete, solid PLAN yet… I do have a rough direction, and I am doing things with my life. I’m convening one of the interest groups for the Canadian Federation of University Women this year, I’m also involved with an organization that helps offenders reintegrate into the community, thereby making a difference in someone’s life (although I could argue that point due to recent developments…).. and I’m working and doing good things at work. I feel like I’m filling up my life with positive things and contributing to my world, and perhaps it can grow bigger and bigger in the weeks, months, and years to come.

:)

That’s it for now.

I have decided to enroll in a certificate course at college in the Fall. I think University has largely been a waste of time, when measured against “Odds of Finding a Job” (assuming also, that you want a “relevant” job). I learned a lot, I expanded my knowledge, I practiced new and different ways of thinking and I got so much out of the experience. But going back for another useless degree just doesn’t seem to make much sense at this point. So I’m enrolling in a course called “Crisis Management and Human Psychology” in hopes that I will learn even more things, complement my Criminology/Law degree, meet new and interesting people and make some good connections, and improve my chances of getting a decent job when I’m done!

Also, I’m still looking for good full time work, as the aforementioned program is only offered Part-Time.

I’ve been waiting around for nothing, and holding myself back for far too long. It’s time to MOVE ON. I need to DO something with my life. And sitting, waiting, wishing, isn’t going to fix anything.
thanks to my mother for confronting me on so many fronts tonight