I can’t seem to stop manifesting scary guys. Today, I was literally blocked into a parking lot for a verry long and uncomfortable time, while a badass thought it would be fun to visit with this friends, whilst I sat in the car afraid and yes, rightfully so. He was a scary guy. His other scary friend decided to make lewd comments while the first guy went “a calling” a seriously fucked up situation with very little I could do. Next thing, a lunatic (he still had his bracelet from the psych ward on) comes into the store I am working at and throws a fit. He takes the “welcome’ sign off the door and throws it into the street, “i’m not welcome here’ well of course not. So scary bad guys, I am sick of being scared. Fuck it and fuck all of you. Love. PT 7 years ago
“The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.”
Elbert Hubbard (1856 - 1915)
Elbert Green Hubbard (June 19, 1856 – May 7, 1915) was an American philosopher and writer. He is perhaps most famous for his essay A Message to Garcia.
He was born in Bloomington, Illinois and founded Roycroft, an Arts and Crafts movement community in East Aurora, New York in 1895. This grew from his private press, the Roycroft Press, which was inspired by William Morris’s Kelmscott Press. (Although called the “Roycroft Press” by latter-day collectors and print historians, the organization called itself “The Roycrofters” and “The Roycroft Shops.”)
Hubbard edited and published two magazines, “The Philistine” and “The Fra.” “The Philistine” was bound in brown butcher paper and full of satire and whimsy. (Hubbard himself quipped that the cover was butcher paper because “There is meat inside.”) The Roycrofters produced handsome, if sometimes eccentric, books printed on handmade paper, and operated a fine bindery, a furniture shop, and shops producing modeled leather and hammered copper goods. They were a leading producer of “Mission-style” products.
Hubbard’s second wife, Alice Moore Hubbard, was a noted suffragist, and the Roycroft Shops became a site for meetings and conventions of radicals, freethinkers, reformers and suffragists. Hubbard became a popular lecturer, and his homespun philosophy evolved from a loose William Morris-inspired socialism to an ardent defense of free enterprise and American know-how. Hubbard was much mocked in the press for “selling out.” The American science fiction writer and founder of Scientology, L. Ron Hubbard, was a nephew of Elbert by the adoption of his father into the Hubbard family.
He and his wife were killed in the sinking of the Lusitania by the German submarine, Unterseeboot 20 in May of 1915. The Roycroft Shops, run by Hubbard’s son Elbert Hubbard II, operated until 1938. 8 years ago
I was just myself on the job interview and hung out with my friend, and met some of her friends. Great fun! Life is coming together, except I need to start exercising!!!! I might be moving out soon and moving in with the friend I hung out with! All these goals are coming together! Fucking the fear feels too good! 8 years ago
basicly I’m doing this cause it seams that when I do something that most people are fear full of such as asking someone out or asking for a raise ect…. the worst possible thing happens….such as getting fired or the girl never talking to you again. ect 8 years ago
I haven’t really done anything that requires me to have a normal amount of fear and to get over it.
However, tomorrow I go on a group interview for a job and I’m going to meet up with a friend at a bar.
Just writing that out helped get some anxiety out, I don’t know why I’m so nervous about it all. I’m just weird. 8 years ago