Be a better friend

No one else makes you unkind to others.

If you are unkind to others, it is by your choice.

I thought for the longest time since i have amazing friends that it would make me one. It’s true my friends are amazing but I don’t call, or text them as often as I should. I would like to be the friend my friends can come to for a pick me up. I’m going to try once a week to do something for each of my friends and family as well, to let them know that I do truely appreciate them.

I’m hurting people I care about. I really can’t take that anymore. Like I am projecting the anger I feel to ones on the others who don’t deserve that. I feel like I’m a bad person and I’m starting to hate myself. Rational part of me knows that is all consequence of my mental condition but I still feel guilt. It’s awful. I just want it to stop. I need friends and I’m loosin’ them. How this can be true? It shouldn’t be like that :(

I sent out several cards and postcards over the weekend, just randomly, and today received an email from one of the recipients saying that getting my card had turned a really crappy day into a nice one. I’m so happy! Stuff like that is why I want to make sure that this is a priority in my life. So often it takes so little time to do something that will make someone really happy. It’s totally worth it!

My boyfriend said to me the other night he was sad we didnt spend more time with my friends, its becoz i dont have a group of friends the way he does i have lots on individual friends, I am working on building stronger friendships and creating a strong circle aroung me – last night I had 5 girls over for icecream and movies it was fun :)

For some time now I have thought to myself “is this old fashioned or what??” But Treat Others as You want to be treated”! I know it sounds so very Silly but to be Honest with you. You need to Really step back and check Yourself and Make Sure You are Kind to Each Person You come In contact with. It is easy to think I won’t see that Person again or I will make it up later. Well don’t be that way. Be Kind to each person that comes along your path in Life. You never know who you might need or you might help them by setting a example on what a Real friend is.
I know for sure I want to treat other as I want to be treated and I want people to remember me and think “she is a Great Friend and Mother and Wife.” I want to treat others the way I want to be treated.

I guess I’m just a big, BIG jerk!

I had such a great weekend :) My weekend started already on Wednesday when I decided to go first Tampere, spend the night there and then go to Turku. I had nice chance to meet Emilia and Juho first, spending couple of hours together and then spend the rest of the evening with Antti ♥ On Thursday I took the train to Turku and met my dear friend S. and her dog on the railway station. We baked Apple pie and played a bit with Wii.

On Friday our friend H. came from Tampere as well. We decided to go to movies in the evening and we went to see District 9. It wasn’t that good as I though it would be from some reviews I have seen. After that we had a sauna :) Ad my friend’s dog came with us and I though it was so funny and we decided to call him “Hot Dog” after that :D

On Saturday we decided to go to city centrum to shopping a bit. I found the most perfect jacket ever. But I didn’t bought it, cos it was a bit too expensive (50€) and I really don’t need another jacket :D I bough only one button to my old jacket instead :D After that we went to dinner at Red Hot Chilis. It was nice place and we were all so full. Then we watched Sex and the City movie from DVD cos H. and me hadn’t seen it before. It was ok. And then we backed chocolate cake :D And in the evening we played Wii as a drinking game :D The one who lost the match (what ever we played) had to drink up :D It was so fun :D

And today, Sunday, I came back to Jyväskylä. We didn’t have much time to do cos our train left at 13.05. I had time to raid my friend’s DVD collecion :P She has similar movie taste as I do, so I got 4 nice horror movies and 1 drama about Salem’s witch hunt :)

We meet again after couple of weeks, this time at Tampere :)

I am TERRIBLE at keeping in touch, it gives me anxiety as if it won’t be “enough”...so I’ve decided to talk to my friends more when I’m not living near them. I’m going to start by talking on AIM with them more because I know most of them are on at work or during the day on their phones and try to be as sincere with them and not just “KIT” when I need to tell them something or HAVE to talk to them. Here we go…

I’ve missed my friend S. cos we haven’t talked in a while. So today we talked and I was just going to ask her when I could come to Turku (where she lives) when she asked when I could come there :D So I suggested that I could go next week since I don’t have any plans for that weekend and my bf is busy with something else. So we made a plan that I could come there then :) And we manged to get our friend H. to come there as well! We always have good time with three of us :) The bad thing is that we all live in different cities cos of our studies so we don’t get to see that often. H. lives at Tampere so I get to meet her every now and then, but S. is so far away :(

I think it will be splendid weekend!

_{Oh! And tomorrow my friend E. is coming to Jyväskylä and we go to lunch together and later in the afternoon on coffee. And M. probably will join us too :)}