lose 5 kilos

UGH JUST ate 7 slices of pizza.. DAMN IT!!!.. OK tomorrow I HAVE TO START again!>!

so that I can wear everything!=P

just been eating 4 small meals a day and running up and down stairs!Though had a bit of a relapse with the vetkoek yesterday. Sigh.

So, Ive been eating like crazy this past weeks. Right now I weight 59.6 which makes me really mad!! because a week or so a go I was 58! My goal is to loose at least 8 kilos in two months, sounds pretty reachable.

I’m Going to do everything, to walk 5 times a week 30 min on the treadmill, and Eat extremely healthy.

Today I have to start, yesterday I ate a whole pie by my self.!!!!!!

But I did gain a little weight in between, so even though I lost 5kg, I still want to lose 3kg for Christmas.

To be honest, I haven’t even weight my self for a long time, I know that if I weight my self and I don’t see the result that I was expecting I will be dissapointed and I will cheat really badly, so I am going really slow… I am actually walking like 40- and hour EVERY DAY. I know I can’t believe it! even if I eat like mcdonalds I will still walk.. before if I would eat something that I WASN’T supposed to, I would just over eat for the entire day b.c I felt that if I ALREADY cheat I might as well do it all day, and the next day I will go back to the “diet”.. well not any more, if I have a craving for chocolate I will eat it, and I will walk an extra mile just to make sure I burn more calories….
I haven’t really felt results, well I do have my moments in where I feel skinny but then the next minute I FEEL REALLY fat.. but oh welll….

I set a dead line for me, and its a year!!! I am hopefully going on a exchange, and I want to look my best…

I have a whole year, to tone my body and to loose at least 5 kilos.. I know I could probaly do it in less time, but I dont mind, I have no rush, I WANT TO DO IT RIGHT.>!!

so my goal is to weight 58 kilos again

even though I’m overeating like crazy these days, especially during the evenings when I’m not supposed to eat at all.
I think there are two reasons for it. First, I’ve more or less eliminated juice, chocolate and nuts from my diet because of my nickel allergy. All those three things are great favorites of mine, and of course high in calories.
And most importantly, I’m doing about 3 times more walking all of a sudden. Sometimes I feel like all I do all day is walk. I used to drive the poodles to the dogsitter every morning, and take the subway to work from there. Now that Cora can be home alone, I walk to work and back, which gives a total of 40 minutes of fast walking every day. Plus, I have had the luxury of having someone walk my dogs during the day, so I just walked them for an hour every evning and that was it. Now I have to do all the dogwalking myself. I aim for 2,5 hours every day to keep Cora reasonably tired and happy, sometimes it’s a bit less but always more than 2 hours. Now not all of that is efficient walking of course, we often just go to a park and I throw sticks and tennis balls for Cora and don’t move that much myself. But because Cora is scared of other dogs, it’s quite stressful to be in parks, so now I more and more often take her to the forest instead, even though that means we spend quite a bit of time in the car. Better exercise for the both of us, and more relaxing since there are no other dogs around most of the time.

If I could just stop the stupid overeating in the evenings, the 3 remaining kilos would probably come off in no time at all. I’m not even hungry most of the time, I just eat because I’m stressed or tired or frustrated or bored, or just out of habit really. And it’s a very, very hard habit to break. But I really need to do it!

2 kilos is brilliant progress though, quite happy with that!

It’s like.. when ever I am ready to loose them, and I start eating better… I go back to my old habits… Today I ate like 10 things of bread!! and they where each like 80 calories!! hfhfhh…. and I was doing well….

My friend might be coming, and I want to look my best… I really need to keep my self in track… Starting tomorrow.. I will have to eat healthier, start drinking more water.. doing exercise every day, it’s going to be hard…. but I need to do it.

I would probably be much faster swimming.