Have a closer walk with Christ

Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But it all comes down to faith
Thats the way I see it

You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
“All we have is now”
But I don’t believe it

There’s a God-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There’s a God-shaped hole in all of us
And it’s a void only he can fill

Does the world seem gray with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?

That’s my point of view…

I’m starting to feel a lot better about this goal. I’m thinking about God more and more everyday and I’m doing not so bad on my devotionals. In general I just feel like I’m slowly getting closer to Him (=

I watched this movie tonight called Bruce Almighty (with Jim Carey and Jennifer Aniston) and it was all about how the character Jim Carey played got God’s powers but in the beginning he used them on himself and later on in the movie he started using them to help others. It just really made me think about God and everything that I’ve been given by Him. It makes me feel bad that I don’t talk to Him as much as I should and I don’t trust in Him enough when things in my life get tough. On a better note, it just reminded how much I need to do these things! Trust Him more, talk to Him more, be more grateful, and most of all, share my blessings. I feel like I just want to be the kind of person that lets Christ really shine through. I want people to know that I’m Christian and that I try my best to be a good person.

Anyways, these were just my thoughts after I watched this movie. For some reason I have a good feeling these thoughts will stick with me for a few days…maybe for longer (=

Into 3 separate goals:

1) Devotional and Prayer Time:Need to get back on track with doing this every single day no matter how lazy or tired I am. God wants me to talk to Him, He wants to hear about my life!

2) Reading My Bible:Need to be doing this!! I would love to read my Bible at least twice a week and I would like to start turning to it when I need help and advice. After all, this is God’s love letter to us (=

3) Attending Church:I’ve been slacking on this too…I feel like because I didn’t like the first church I tried, it kind of discouraged me from continuing to try other churches. I plan on changing this though!

That’s pretty much how I feel about this goal atm. I’m planning on going to church Sunday morning, a new church, and the service is at 11am so hopefully I enjoy it. I’m starting to get worse with talking to God and praying and of course doing my devotionals. I plan on working on that this weekend though.

I’m starting to feel a lot better about this goal. Even though I’ve stopped devotionals (again) and I don’t read the Bible as much as I should (actually at all), I feel like in some way I’ve gotten much closer to God. I think about Him a lot during the day and pray to Him when I’m struggling with something…even if it’s just something as simple as having patience to deal with someone at work. I think about His plan for my life and I try to show love and kindness to each and every person. It’s not as easy as I thought it would be. I’m doing a lot of things without thinking about it. Like before, I use to have to actually think “Gee, I should probably pray today” but now I just do it right off the bat like it’s almost a habit now.

I hope anyone else who’s trying to achieve this goal (or goals similar to this one) is having as much as I am. It takes a lot of patience and a lot of strength to hang on and stick with God even when you feel like giving up. I know in the long run it will all be worth it though.

Good luck everyone and God Bless (=

I wasn’t always the way I am now. I use to be good at writing devotionals daily, talking to God everyday even at times when I didn’t need something, and for the awhile there, I was pretty great Christian. I didn’t swear. I treated people much better. Showed patience and love and kindness. I treated myself better. Exercised and ate a well balanced diet. I went to church every single Sunday.

Since I moved away from home for university last year, I got very off track. But now, I want things to be different. I want to be that girl again and I’m going to try my hardest to be her.

Lord, please watch over me as I struggle to be close to You once more. It’s been a difficult year with many new adjustments and I lost sight of what was the most important thing in my life…You. Please be with me in times of need and help me show more patience, kindness, and love. All I want is to be closer to You.
Amen.

At least it shouldn’t be, to a christian. The bible says the just shall live by faith. the just are those who are redeemed, in essence, christians.

Further faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. That’s how I’m supposed to live.

There are times that I am like the children of israel, looking at the circumstance (the reality) and wanting to go back to Egypt. I look at the situation, the bills that are due, not having the extra spending money that I’d like, or simply having to wait to make purchases I would normally have been able to buy on impulse.

That is when I get distracted from my studies. That is when I start submitting my resume. That is when I go into this cycle of frustration becsuse no one will hire me. I KNOW that God’s will is for me to finish school and go to law school. I am not going to get a job until He is ready for me to. I earnestly prayed for God to open and close the necessary doors for His will to be done in my life. I trust that He is honoring my prayer. I know further that the manna that takes care of us, takes very good care of us. I have to learn to stop being greedy and wanting seconds, with an impatience that will not allow me to have patience. I realize that I am supposed to rejoice when I fall into diverse temptations; “count it all joy”. Of course that is easier said than done. That is my cross. It’s time for me to re-read the book of James.

I am having a hard time reconciling with the fact that all things are working together for the good of those that love God and are called according to His purpose.

My 15 year old is making some very bad, very grown up decisions, for which there are very grown up consequnces. I’ve got a thousand and two questions running through my head….What did I do? What didn’t I do? Did I, in trying to protect him, buffer his perception of reality? Is he on drugs? Why Lord??? WHY is my baby deciding to follow his friends instead of his family? Doesn’t he know that I know what’s best for him??? My heart is split in two. I can’t stop crying. I know I’ve gotta be stronger than this, but knowing aint doing. Do I call the police? He hasn’t been home in two days, and he called last night to say he needs a “couple of weeks”. What the HELL is he thinking??? I don’t want to see him on the news! I need prayer. I need strength. I need to go back in time and have a do-over to try to fix whatever’s broken in my child’s heart or head. Okay. First things first. I think I WILL call the police, make te report, and PRAY. HARD.

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands One who is my Savior

I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me this I read
And in my heart I find a need
For Him to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

My Savior loves, my Savior lives
My Savior’s always there for me
My God He was, my God He is
My God He’s always gonna be

Yes, living, dying let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on High
And come for sinful men to die
You count it strange so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior’s always there for me
My God He was, My God He is, My God He’s always gonna be (x6)

My Savior lives, My Savior loves
My Savior lives, My Savior loves