I have trouble trusting people… I just moved to a new city to be with my boyfriend.. exboyfriend… i know no one but his friends, i felt really homesick and he left last week right before rent was due.. 2 weeks ago he was telling me he wanted to spend forever together, now im stranded here.. i havent told any of my co-workers, i dont want to involve my personal life in work.. i have only told my family.. i dont have any friends around here all the ones i do have through him are absolutly his, and loyal.. i know no one and im not comfortable meeting new people in this state.. i dont feel right telling anyone my situation im afraid theyll feel sorry for me..and its embarassing being pittied by strangers.. i wish i had friends to talk to but if i cant open up to anyone i dont know how its going to happen…
my ex always said i didnt trust him enough always worried that exactly this would happen.. my parents split up when i was young and i have a tendancy of dating the same men over and over through break up and break up i havent been single in 10yrs… im either in a relationship or recovering from one then jumping right back into the same one… i dont know what im so afraid of…..i used to be a very outgoing and ive been burned alot by friends and relationships more so but for some reason ive always gone back…
its not healthy… i need to let people in- we’re all alone but we’re all together in that too.. i just dont know where to start..
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I don’t take friendship lightly. I mean, I am friendly and I could say that I get along well with others, but when it comes to matters of trust, I’m a serious camper. The past events in my life have led me to become this person that rarely lets anyone in. Aside from my own family members, I probably only really trust about 2 or 3 other people in this world. I always complain about how I need someone to talk to about certain things, yet I refuse to open up to people because they either don’t ask or I am afraid of being disappointed by both them and myself. I’m sheltering myself from something that I need and it’s not healthy for me.
I have once again ended a beautiful relationship. This time it was after 5 years and the first time it was after a whopping 10 years.
I cannot forgive my partner if he made wrong decisions in the relationship. I am more than dedicated and always walk the str8 and narrow in the relationship. I cannot accept the fact that my partner cant be the same. Reality check…..no one is the same.
I always ponder on the past and never talk about the good times we had together. I am always the ass that brings up the shit that happened in the pass. I CANNOT FORGIVE AND FORGET.
I need to do soul searching for along time….i need to drop the pass and live every day for the good thats awaiting me.
Will i ever meet my soul partner?
Ok so i have a HUGE trust problem. Its come to the point where i cant even trust myself. I know that sounds kind of confusing but for example, I had so many things i just wanted to talk about 2 someone but i couldn’t find anyone that i trusted enough so i tried starting a journal, & i couldn’t even write down the truth about how i felt towards anything, even if i knew none would read it. A few years ago i had trust problems with friends & even my mom (our relationship is even worse now). Every time i tried to confide in someone, they’d end up telling someone or use it against me & its hurt me so much that i can’t take it anymore so now i just don’t trust anyone. I really want to though….ughhhh I just feel like Ive been through too much to keep getting hurt so I’ve decided to block out everyone
We are in this all of us together and i know that we understand this concept so why not trust each other and know that others want the best for me? I as many of you have been hurt before and it gets harder to trust people but this is something we all have to go through and renew ourselves to again trust each other as when we were kids
for varying reasons mistrust set in and it is something that is blocking my pathway. I am determined to change this to enable me to be more comfortable around people!
This will take a while. But isn’t it normal that people apprehensive at first?
I can’t trust people much. However much so that this generation of people seem to overtly guarded that being able to trust someone, gets me bruised and abused far too many times…
I have a hard time trusting people. There’s no reason why I just don’t trust that many people.
