Keep a look out for opportunities

This can be in anything. From the smallest chance to be the real you you want to be to the huge changes we want to see in our lives.

I was thinking of this more on a job front level originally. I’m now starting to view it on a whole life plane.

I am now starting to involve resources that before I never would involve. I think it was due to I always thought I had to do it myself and by myself to be accomplished. My view is changing.

I am actively searching.

So at the end of May, everyone in my department at work was called in to this mysterious meeting, they wouldn’t tell us beforehand what was going on, or what it was about, and anyone who DID know was sworn to secrecy.. Then they got us all together and told us that our company was being split in 2. (Several years ago, Company A got big enough to buy Company B. They decided to be Company C. So now, for whatever reason, Company C is splitting into Companies A and B again.. both under “parent company” Company D. —don’t ask.) So all of us were assured that we “still have jobs” but they couldn’t be sure of much else beyond that. And apparently some of our people (who had come over from Company B when we became Company C) were going back to Company B. Well.
That felt like opportunity to me. So i grabbed it!! I’ve moved over to Company B, which meant moving to a whole new city, where I know noone and can’t really find my way around. :) :) haha
And I’m PSYCHED!! Its been fantastic. The rent out here is cheaper, the views are prettier, The office I’m in is more comfortable, the people at work are friendlier, its everything I hoped for. :) :)
AND after I had my transfer all in order, they cut my shift completely from Company A, and moved the other lady who worked with me to only weekends!! SO I would have been terminated if I hadn’t gotten out at the right time!! Amazing, huh?
I’m so grateful!!

I guess I have been doing this. I do better than what I did in the past, but there’s still room for improvement. So I’ll leave it for now.

I have to look out for opportunities now because life is getting nothing short of crazy! I have to leave where I live by the first of July… My job is going to shift cuz my co-worker is moving on.. Not sure what’s going to happen with C in the picture again.. wow.. wow…wow… must keep looking.. I’m looking every day. Trying to think about stuff and approach things differently.

I need to rethink things. Life is becoming like a hampster wheel for me right now.. I hate it. I am not living. I’m only maintaining. It sucks.

When I envision the life that I want, it’s so completely NOT the way I’m living now. I must stop and take some time to meditate and think about how to stop this cycle. I must do something else, something different, try a new approach…..

What ‘opportunities’ means to me right now is in the work force. While I’m slowly working towards selling my handcrafted goods, I need a job.

I have a job now. And while it’s definitely doable and I can deal with it just fine, I honestly don’t want to be here for 2 years. I’m thinking it’s going to take at least 2 years for me to be at a point where I can be self employed.

I miss my job in Asheville SO much. It was a great environment and while it was very demanding, the people were wonderful and I just had my nitch. I never had to think about it when the day was over.

There is a weird residual tense energy at this job. It’s a very corporate job as well. People just seem skeptical, guarded and ready to fix blame on anyone but themselves. There’s a lot of ego. It might be subtle at first, sugar coated in whatever corporate religious psychological seminars people have gone through here, but when you work here for a while, you see these little glimpses of fierce arrogant egos.

People back stab. They lie. They pawn off. Not that people don’t do this anywhere else. But I remember what it was like to work with imperfectly genuine people who had no problem being open, upfront and well, just people.

I hope I can find a place in this city that will be more like that kind of environment. I feel like I have truly done a flip flop. I traded an awesome city for a not so awesome job. I’d like to keep pushing the options.. I want to find where the people are that I could work with so much better.

I do a fine job now, but give me the right environment, and I could soar.

I have to remind myself not to get too down when I check job sites and see few jobs being added. And then I think about how many jobless people there are trying to compete for the same job.. then I feel like it’s pointless.

But I really shouldn’t. It’s stuff like that, which can get in the way of an opportunity. Just need to push all that aside and keep trying anyway.

I’m trying to think about things differently this week. I need life to change. It’s getting frustrating as hell. Something has to give. I need my mind to look at life with a different approach.

like Frosts ‘the road less taken’...
the world is full of paths without signposts
Let me open my mind to what is all around me…
and then see with my eyes.