be a good doctor

Things are going well and I think I’m getting better.

I had a few troubles with the other 2nd year student; but I got advice from my cousin and I’m now doing things my way.

The end of my hospital training is approching and I’m feeling sad and anxious. I don’t want to live this place or the people I work with.

I’ll still have a way to be in touch with the third year students but not with the intern. I’m trying to think of a (personal) way to thank him for everything he’s done for me. It might look like a love letter but I feel like he’s had such a huge influence on me; I can’t just say “thanks” and leave.

Any ideas?

I’ve been disappointed by a patient who left against medical advice.
I’m the one who got to know him first and I think he was depressed. As in, real depression.
I’m kinda worried about him.

The other 2nd year student was pissed off this morning because she thought the intern was rude to her. She didn’t know the basis of the neurological exam and to me, showed total lack of interest. Then she bitched about the intern, saying she had other things to do than learn about neurology (when we only spend mornings at the hospital).
She later told me she thought she over reacted.

I spend the morning on the phone trying to get lab results and patient date; I think I was efficient. I didn’t get to see many patients, though. The intern asked me if I had any and I was hoping he would put me in charge for one of them but … I don’t think it’s gonna happen. There is now a 6th year student with us (staying on afternoons too) so she does most of the work.

Yesterday evening, I was told I had passed my finals. I’m going straight to third year (without any subject to study this summer).

Hospital training is going well and a senior doctor was apparently satisfied of my “observation”. I hope I’ll be able to keep it that way.

This may sound pretentious but I’d like to stand out of my group. I want someone to reckon that I’m doing a good job. We’ll see if that day ever comes …

Thing is: I realized I did a pretty good job with this patient two days ago. He was much better yesterday and I know I asked him relevant questions.

I was also pleased to see I had noticed tons of things on a new patient today. I was proud of myself :p I don’t know if I’m better than the other students working with me but I think I’m doing a good job :)

Today, I did my first “observation” with a friend. The patient was what we can call NOT cooperant. It really was hard to ask him questions.
He would not let us check his heart, lungs and abdomen but didn’t cause that much problem when the intern came by.
Emotionally hard morning …

Still working at the hospital and still loving it.

I’m getting more confident around patients because I’m starting to know what I’m actually doing.

A third year student told me that I knew tons of things; he also told my friend I was “very motivated”. I’m glad he noticed! :)

After another week at the hospital, I can say that I LOVE it. It’s a difficult job, dealing with illness everyday and not being able to think of something else but … I feel useful, I feel like I’m getting better.

I am still nervous around patients because
1- I don’t want to seem pretentious
2- I don’t know anything about their illness (for some of them)
3- they are still people not objects for me to study
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I started working at the hospital every morning three weeks ago.
I think I need to be more confident when I’m with a patient. To make him feel like he is being taken care of, he is in good hands. Even if I have to rely on the intern.

I was wondering whether I was Izzie or Cristina. By that, I mean that I’m competitive but I was wondering if I would behave like this with patients. Turns out I’m Izzie. I don’t mind putting the patient’s interest first (rather than me seeing something new…)

I’m in the end of the second medical year, my life is little bit messed up or i think it is , I’m trying so hard to change my life style in many ways, I feel like my family depend on my and i don’t want to let them down, this is the most reason that make me wanna be a good Doctor and help the world in general , not for self-interesting , I have a lot of goals i want it to be accomplished , but I think being a good doctor requires more than just dream , it takes working hard ….

I don’t wanna be guided but i want someone to show me the right way…

my childhood aim was to be a good doctor. of course it came true. but when i was starting my residency my dream was to become a good pediatrician . But at the end i change my mind to become an anesthetist. STILL UNSTABLE DECISION ? .
HOPE I WILL GET A GOOD DECISION AND GET SUCCESS :)