even my temper

but I think I’ve become more tolerant with her. I’m always trying to be, anyway. I think it may always be a struggle, but at least I’m now making a conscious effort to do better.

except with the aunt of mine whom I live with. I often speak sharply to her and get annoyed with her easily. Although there are certain characteristics about her that evoke this, I know I must learn to treat her better. Any suggestions would be much appreciated.

Yes, and getting enough sleep, thinking before acting, having a positive attitude, praying, working the programs such as anger management, 12 steps, etc.

I’m going to do a fourth anger management program through the North Chicago VA Hospital near the naval base.

Note to self: it is much easier to be even-tempered when you get enough sleep.

I’m still struggling. Am improving every day, but still not in that peaceful place that I want to be. Perhaps a good solution would be to distance myself from infuriating situations, or people who push my triggers. This, however, is not so simple when family or close friends are involved.

I’ve been trying very hard. In the past couple of days, I’ve been GRUMBLING instead of snapping at annoying people or situations. What I really want to do is breathe and handle thing calmly and honorably, but I guess that only grumbling, for me, is progress.

Sometimes, people’s behavior annoys me. I bear it silently, but at some point, become snappish. This might be solved by the good old method of think and breathe before I speak. Or it could be solved by not having annoying people in my life. Really, I don’t need mothers constantly talking about their children and never listening to me. It’s boring. And I don’t need people complaining that their diet doesn’t work and their metabolism must be defect, all the while eating junk food. And I really don’t need people who are too noisy in the morning. Oh. I really do want a gentler human environment. Which means I should quit this corporate job of mine, probably.

Concsious, deliberate breathing makes me calmer and even-tempered. I should remember to do that every morning, and every time the day gets complicated.

Take a breath before I speak, take a breath before I speak, take a breath before I… Yes. I really should remember this.