Go to graduate school, get a masters degree

So I dropped one of the summer classes, and apparently that was the wrong one. I dropped it based on what was being offered in the fall, which worked better with the other course I’m taking.

There’s just no way. I’m kidding myself that there would be a way to quickly catch up on the content of the class that I’m behind on going in, but I can’t even decipher when I would work on the homework, much less complete it, much less study.

Much less.

That should be the new mantra. Especially in the fall when I try again. Right now I’ve gotta make like school in July.

No class.

Intensive and short summer classes? Check. Level II of a class where you don’t remember Level I since it was four years ago (and about a slightly different topic anyway)? Check.

Full time day job with commute of its own? Check.

Classes every night until late? Four days in a row? Public transit making everything take longer? by “longer” did you mean loooooooooooooonger?

Heavy books, trying to stand on crowded bus after bus (just before train) when your legs are just done? Glad it’s raining to hide your tears of defeat? Oh, additional part time job? Couple otherprojects on hold that you still want to try to start/restart? Possible awesome wholesales deal in the works (I guess this would fall under the first part time job, sortof)? Just bought a fixer-upper home? 43things list of other dreams to do?

I could go on for a much longer for this, but you get the idea. And eventually, the instinct to quit whining like a bitch kicks in. It’s just taking a while.

Ok, so if this doesn’t work, what will? What do I want to work? I’m a little too tired to really figure it out and problem solve this one to the best of my ability, but the short answer is that one of these classes has to go…

Classes start…

Scared shitless and excited as hell.

Great combo.

With the advisor of the Computer Science program at my chosen U.

I have some questions…

I got a little mailer from the last school for grad credits I was going to about signing up for spring classes and when I could do so and the PIN I would need.

I had figured that class I took had been long enough ago I would have to re-appy, but apprently not.

Think the universe is telling me something?

I completed one last year. I would have to say that school wise, I probably learned more in the two years of my master’s than I did during all of the previous years I had been in school combined.

I got my MA in English (concentrations in American lit and Later British Lit) in 2005.

maybe in Education or Comparative Lit or Queer Studies

So, today I sent off for an information/application packet for a grad program. I can totally do this. I just need to make sure that I’m doing this for better reasons than avoiding “the real world” or “crappy job market”.

I can pay for my first term with my own money. And so what if I’m only planning on doing the part time track?

I think that I’ve wanted to go to grad school since before I even started my undergrad degree. A few months ago, I got my first rejection letter. I’m not sure how I should feel about it, having never been rejected from a single thing in my life.

Now I’m reconsidering my future plans. That doesn’t mean I’ve given up, just that I need to rethink the “how” in approaching this goal.