make love to a women

been 10 yrs i belive i started trying looking but no luck :(

the wunting to do these is driveing me crazy im thing be best to dig a hole in my mind of the thot of it and full it in never think of it agin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XWXXeZmz2M

have been trying to meet up whith a man and women how are marryed and wunt to do a 3 some dot live fare from me to but hard to get thim on same time im off /sigh .

I dot think they realy wunt to do it whith us so going to keep looking out there cross my finger’s and hope for the best .

going to try out a gay church see how i like it might meet a nice women there ^^ even make some good friends that are like me someone that understands what im going thow you know hehe .

ill post here from time to time see if you think my plan will work out .

is it stange for me to fell this way about women am i sick?
i yust started to come out about thing most friends i tell are cool whith it inless there a women that is thin they start look uncuffy arond me and all /sigh .
im starting to wunder if i shold of just keep it all inside like i had all these years i know it is not good to but it is hard felling this way and no one to talk to about it .

wold like to see what it’s like just once :)