be proactive

So…I’m totally not the go getter type. But in the last week I’ve made contacts to set up an internship, gotten together with our internship coordinator, picked up a minor in Biology…

All things I’ve been worried about and putting off…totally not as hard as I’ve been thinking them to be.

Baby steps I guess..?

This goal is not S.M.A.R.T., so I’m shifting it around. I consider my Best Year Yet goal and my Clean Sweep goal to be proactive. Cleaning up my resume and applying for a different job was proactive. So this goal is done!

im working on staying positive and actively seeking ways to give myself away. ive been trying to use my time a lot more productively by cutting the time i spend watching tv and the internet. also im learning how to relax and put my mind at ease by picking up on meditation and where i used to be such a nighthawk and sleep the day away im getting better rest and working on better health altogether. where i used to turn away from a challenge because of feeling struggle was useless i now seek it. im pretty high on this idea and i understand that at some point it might deflate a little or a lot but it doesn’t make a washout of my effort nor does it make me a failure but just confirms im human and part of moving forward or living is learning how to improvise. shooting for the moon is not a bad idea.

somehow i have all the time for everything that does nothing for me and not a minute for anything conducive. how fucking glum lifes become and for what? im having a tough time figuring it out.

the house in the next 20 minutes. Pushing myself away from the computer…..I’m creating my day!

SO in a rut. I swear I have more drive than I’ve been acting like I do lately…I want to accomplish more instead of sitting around feeling guilty about my apathy.

feeling stuck. So, I thought if I made a specific goal and tried to record my accomplishments, I might move forward.

It’s the hardest part. When I just move, I can get a lot done. But it’s too easy for me to get lost in thought, or, just as likely, my RSS reader. I need to stop letting myself fall into unplanned distractions that eat up an hour or more. Stupid OCD tendencies.

It seems after 2 years I have gone full circle back to my original goals here on 43T.

Having gone around the mountain so many times it seems I could actually be spending my time accomplishing more now. :)

impromtu barbecue at my house on the river. I asked some friends and at first they were too busy except 1 friend who said he would definitely be there.

This morning others called and said it sounded like fun…I don’t really care who all shows up but the grill is going to be fired up with grilled salmon, roasted corn, & a side of cole slaw and watermelon for dessert…hmmm I do have some chocolate cherry ice cream I have been saving for a special occassion. :)