be positive

I cannot think of a better story than this to back up my idea that if you think positive then positive things will happen…
The last couple of days I’ve been really kind of down. I think it has to do with the fact that Sunday was father’s day and Torren’s birthday is next Sunday and I haven’t heard from his dad in almost 3 months. Trust me… it’s not like I miss this guy at all… it just makes me so upset to know that he choose this disgusting life style over having a relationship with his son. It always makes me feel like there must be something really wrong with me if someone actually would choose to live in the middle of nowhere, make no money at a crappy job, drink constantly, and hook up with random bar sluts over his little family. The thought of him and some of the things he’s done and said to me in the last few years literally makes me sick. Everytime I think he can’t sink any lower this guy manages to sink to new levels of pathetic. 99% of the time I just don’t care anymore… I love Torren more than two parents could love a kid, and I don’t mind taking care of him by myself. It’s just that at times around holidays and special days I get kind of sad… So for the last few days I’ve been kind of down… I don’t know what changed today but I’ve really decided once and for all that I’m not going to let it get to me anymore. I can’t change him… so all I can do is continue to do what’s best for Torren and try and stay as positive as I can. I told myself to just get rid of all that hate that’s bundled up inside.. Haha, as cheesey as it sounds if your heart is full of hate then there’s no room for love :) So literally within minutes of my little revalation the phone rings and it’s the lady from red bull ready to do a phone interview… she liked me so much I have a proper interview on Thursday!! This seriously sounds like an absolute dream job for me :) Then not long after that I got an email from my Sociology teacher telling me that eventhough he gave the rest of my group a B on their final project grade he gave me and one other girl an A because we obviously worked much harder and handed in much better work than the others :) So then as I’m walking downstairs to leave I ran into my sister who told me that her friend that was over last week who hadn’t seen me in a few years told her that I was really pretty and that they couldn’t believe I had had a baby because I’m so tiny :) Seriously… on a scale of one to ten this day would have been a million :) I think I’m definitely gonna keep this positive thing up :) And besides…. everyone knows that success is always the best revenge :)

I was feeling quite negative earlier today. I was out and about walking and my thoughts drifted to things others have done/are doing that hurt me. But I reminded myself that I want to be positive and gave myself a good talking to and turned my attitude around.

Being bitter does nobody any good – not me, not them. So after a bit of rationalising and teasing out exactly what’s bothering me, what I can reasonably expect and how I should handle things I’m feeling a lot brighter and more positive about people and life in general.

that I am so much more positive since I joined 43 Things. I think it’s making me aware of so many good things in life and of all the possibilities. Plus I’m becoming more focussed and the sense of achievement and getting my life sorted is uplifting.

I am going to see a therapist. I’m tired of thinking negatively and not accomplishing my goals. It sucks. I recognize I have a problem. This is my thing to do.

I think I’m quite a positive person naturally. It’s strange, although I have depression and it can pull me down, I feel that naturally I want to turn things around and bounce back. It’s a comforting realisation. No matter what bad things I’ve gone through, I’ve always managed to turn it around so this time won’t be any different. Already things are looking better.

This site is really helping me be conscious of all the good things I have, and all the good things I can achieve. Thank you website-running-people and especially all of you 43 Thingers who have given me cheers, encouragement and inspiration!

I had kind of a shitty day yesterday… Nothing in particular happened… I think I’m just stressed out about finals and just dying for my break… Anyway… I was kinda crabby and tired and I just wanted to have friends over for a bonfire and I couldn’t even get anyone to come over and hang out with me (not that it was really anyone’s fault… It was a last minute thing and everyone already had plans) But anyway… Instead of going to bed sulking and in a bad mood I sat around the bonfire and made smores with my mom and sister instead. It ended up being really fun actually… And it made me remember that family is always just as good… if not better… than friends :)

I sleep thinking positively and wake up not doing it.
I have to do this more often. And waking up thinking positive makes my day much more easier, I get ideas and work along just fine! I even get a lot of appointments!

I have been absolutely positive every single day for months now, through all the crap (and I talk of life-changing crap!). Not positive every single moment of the day, no, but something positive every single day.

Little children are positive and enthusiastic (of course, they have no responsibilities, etc). Wouldn’t it be great to re-capture that sense of wonder. I just noticed that on average it takes 3 yrs to accomplish this goal. I laughed (I guess it’s working already!). How funny that there is actually a plan which can be measured!!

everything will be fine if you love yourself and allow yourself good sleep.