be completely happy

life is perfect, the only thing standing in its way is us.

again- i’m never quite satisfied and i want to change that.

i have been completely happy. happy is a state of mind and it is entirely your decision to be happy. i am making efforts to take things as they come and not worry constantly. even though i have been single for five months, i am still content. even though my parents are having custody issues, we are working through it. i am happy, i have wonderful friends, a nice house, and loving family.

...it’s all anyone needs really. As long as you’re happy, you don’t need anything else. Of course, my idea of my happiness is…(well, it’s not just happiness, it’s my idea of HEAVEN)...living in amsterdam, owning a sailing yacht (preferably a contessa 32 shared with friends), a caravan to hire place near by, a fuck load of weed all the time, to be good at my job and happy with it, having a LOT of friends who I really connect with and to be satisfied with everything that I have accomplished. Wat about everybody else?

..i can say that right now i am completely, utterly HAPPY…...
:)

i’m working on it…with help. ;)
i’ve met someone, we spent the entire weekend together, just being goofy (putt-putt, racing go-karts at Goony Golf) and i was just totally blown away at how he made me feel like a 15 year-old again.good times, good times.

i’m not exactly sure this is possible for me.i’m a naturally sad person, i actually like being sad,it makes me happy (does that make sense?)
but it would be nice to know what true happiness really feels like…....