cranofacial erythemia can be and is in my case hereditary. i was just told by my mother that when she was a kid, her father would blush while he was talking to her for no apparent reason. my face light up immediately. i yelled,”so thats where i got it from.”
my mom had no clue i had it because i am pretty damn good at hiding it these days.(cutting off my sentence before blushing happens, or pretending i have to go into the kitchen for something)
it is a relief to know that its not my fault. (the doctor said that drinking on weekends is the cause…yeah right)
it can be very embarrassing, and most of the time it is just the fear of blushing that can cause me to do it. its a nasty cycle, and it can cause permanent damage to your skin. (rosacea)
i tried anti anxiety meds, but the side effects were worse than the problem. so i am now trying valerian root. it makes me sleepy. dunno if its helping though.
i really want this to go away and feel for anyone that knows exactly what i am talking about.
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I have GOT to find a way to make this blushing go away. Even my mom noticed it. We were buying stuff and she asked for change while I gave the cashier my payment and my mom took the change and… anyway, to make a long story short, I was blushing throughout the entire process because of the situation. And my mom pointed that out to me, so I said, “Did I really? I didn’t even feel it!” It was true, I didn’t.
So to that I say, WTF?
MechaFright considers the past deep-fried.
I said something kind of stupid to my dog the other day and I blushed. In front of my dog. He was just staring at me.
And then the thought of me blushing in front of my dog was so fucking stupid that I started blushing even more.
Fuck! Has to stop!
I look like an idiot every time I do this ‘cause it’s like I’m succumbing to their teases. Especially when it involves a guy and his asshole attempts to make me feel like crap. I want to stop blushing, DAMMIT!!!
I think I might be suffering from:
Idiopathic Craniofacial Erythema
Pretty lengthy diagnosis for something as “common” as blushing, huh? Well, ok, so:
“Idiopathic Craniofacial Erythema is a medical condition characterised by severe, uncontrollable, and frequently unprovoked, facial blushing.
Blushing can occur at any time and is frequently triggered by even mundane events, such as, talking to friends, paying for goods in a shop or asking for directions. The redness can take several minutes to dissipate leaving the sufferer feeling exposed and embarrassed.
Sufferers will often seek careers which do not ordinarily bring them into contact with others, especially the general public, and may have problems with relationships. Consuming excessive quantities of alcohol in order to, “speak your mind”, or alleviate the anxiety caused by the condition is common.
A link is frequently described between Idiopathic Craniofacial Erythema and Social Anxiety Disorder.
Other symptoms include excessive sweating on the palms, feet and under-arm areas.”
No sweating for me, just blushing, I think. Talk about sucking butt. =(
Sometimes I blush over totally pointless things too.. But I’ve got better recently! The trick is, just not thinking about it- forcing it out of your head, kind of like if you’re trying to go to sleep to stop thinking anything.. though it can make you look kinda spaced out.. I remember once when I was about 11 years old, I was in a pshe class (like health class) and we were having ‘discussion groups’ and some girl started talking about mastubation- I knew what it was, but I didn’t know the name for it.. and so had no idea about what this girl was talking about, but she asked me if I had ever mastubated or something similar, and I went bright red, despite having no idea hwat she was talking about! Of course that looked kinda bad.. I also used to blush whenever other people farted, so it always looked as though it was me.. and I dunno, if i start thinking things through sometimes, or think ‘there’s no reason for me to be embarrassed or blush about this’ i then blush uncontrollably! ARGH! My French teacher used to tease me about my boyfriend all the time and I would get so embarrassed i’d put my bright red head on my arms on my desk until i felt as if i had recovered- it isnt advisable.. i think if you just ignore your blushing other people will too.. luckily i dont take french anymore :)
OK, this has gotta be some sort of deep-rooted anxiety mechanism. When I turn beet/tomato red, I feel it like the flames of hell. Sometimes, though, I’d blush and I won’t even notice, but some of my friends never fail to point out the fact that I’m blushing. And I don’t even have anything to be embarrassed about at that moment in time. I think it’s just a buildup of laughing and excitement laughing triggers or something like that. I dunno, but whatever it is I HATE IT.
It’s been a few weeks into college. So today, in one of my classes, the whole class zeroed in on me because I had to explain my answer to a question to the professor. So I did but while I was doing that, I was practically sliding halfway through my chair and my arms were around my face like some sort of guarding force. To top it all off, I felt my face getting redder by the nanosecond, which INCREASED the blushing a hundredfold.
THIS BLUSHING THING STINKS! I don’t even have to be in front of strangers with eyes focused on me to blush – it could be in front of my friends and it still happens. And I can feel it physiologically, too. Blood rushing to head.. POUNDING second-lasting headaches. It’s ridiculous the amount of panic attacks I go through just because of this stupid, stupid.. whatever it is! Gah, I don’t even know how to put it in words. I’m just upset at the fact that I blush easily because it gives people the impression that I’m some kind of.. geez, Id on’t event know. But it’s not good, that’s a fact.
I wanna change it but I dunno how! All I know is it takes practice.. and I just dunno. I need it to go away fassst.
I was asking the visitors for information on financial aid, and all eyes were on me, so I turned red in the middle of finishing my second question.
Maybe it IS hereditary.
And maybe I DO want bubble-gum flavored ice cream.
She told me I was beautiful, and I blushed, and I couldn’t stop blushing because everyone else’s eyes were on me, twinkling in the artificial light (hah, nice mix of words there).
BUT! I’m getting better in some aspects. For instance, I voiced my opinions in a meeting today, sans blushing! I consider that a feat!
In your (red) face!
