be comfortable in my own skin

today with a few friends. I can honestly say that I was shocked to even be invited, much less included in this little clique. I am by far, appearance-wise, much different than these women. We have a ton in common otherwise, but my being from a different area and not working currently sets me apart from them, so who knows what we will talk about.

All that aside, I am sooo ready for this- I need/want the time away from the husband (other than when he goes to work), and I’m looking forward to hangin out with the girls.

Now…what to wear…HA.

Tonight was one of those nights. In certain company, I’m myself, and tend not to worry about the menial things. But tonight we went to a football party and had to uh, intermingle for lack of a better word. I’m not a very social person, and I’m just not comfortable around people I don’t know, so I tend to back off and watch everyone else have a good time, and join in where I feel comfortable enough. I guess right now working on this is going to be hard for me, having my dental issues and being somewhat overweight. I’m just not comfortable with socializing, smiling, laughing, basically having a good time, unless I’m in that comfort zone. Husband kept trying to push me into doing kareoke with about 5 beautiful young women-he got pissed at me for not participating, but there was no way. I’m ashamed and embarrassed to open my mouth, much less belt out the lyrics to some of my favorite songs-just let me be right by myself not drawing attention from anyone. Is that too much to ask? Ugh, I’ve got a long way to go…

in the end, i think every day is a process, i just try and keep my mind off of the things that get me nervous or feel weird about myself. this is me, and i like me… its a daily process :)

i really wish i could do this and just accept myself.but im depressed and its not working out too well

but i guess i grew out of it because i’m never embarrassed by anything, rarely stressed and i don’t care what people think. having that power makes it easy to wear what i want, say what i want, and not care about weird glances.
i think it’s something you just have to be like.. i’m confident in what i’m doing right now so it shouldn’t matter what others think. yeah, there’s always going to be someone prettier than you in the room and sure, they’re going to be first pick, but that doesn’t mean you’re not great too, she’s just more desirable to the current environment. stay calm.
basically don’t let others control you.

Who does? I envy those who are.

i’ve decided that I need to tone up and lose some weight, but i want to do it in a healthy way.

I’m now happy with my body and feel so much more comfortable and happy with it! You would be amazed at how much better a person feels after they are truly and completely comfortable with their body. It changes your overall mood, makes it a lot easier to wear clothes you’ve always wanted to wear, and gives a sense of relief while getting ready, just by knowing how happy you are with your body.

how can i be comfortable in my skin if im fat and i have problems with my skin plus on top of that i have lots of zitz on my face, i just hate it UGH!!!!!!!!!

but i will try

This shouldn’t be such a problem, but it is.