Cal is looking forward with joy and apprehension.
but perhaps it would e better to say “form a good relationship with God.” I have always had a relationship with God, but only in the last 20 years have I been in His will. Perhaps I am splitting hairs, and I apologize if it seems that way, but I was outside of God’s will for me for so long, that it is important that I now am aware of the quality of our relationship.