Stop being so hard on myself

I’m getting better. I’m not there yet, but I’m getting better. I’m willing to take more things in stride and I think I realize that there is always going to be a certain level of self criticism that I’m always going to have, it’s having it under control to where I can let myself off the hook sometimes while still holding myself accountable when it really counts. There’s a fine line and I don’t think I have quite found it yet.

I think lately I have let up on the self criticism. Probably just because I’m too exhausted to find fault with myself hahahah. Sad.

oh well! For some reason this past week I feel like I’ve made a few personal discoveries that make me feel less insecure, or at least just know myself better, so I guess that’s a step forward for this goal somehow or another? haha OH WELLLLLLLL

I beat myself up about nearly everything. (Not literally, but mentally) Especially when I get a B on my report card. Not even a low B, like an 89 or something. I just always feel like if I only did this a litttle better, I could have(fill in goal here).

In some respects I am getting better at this,
yet in others I am declining.

I think there’s a balance to how hard or how easy you should be on yourself. It’s good to aim high and have big goals but it’s bad to get after yourself when you try your best and things just don’t go the way you expected them to. I have such a hard time with this. Sometimes I let it get me down so much it affects me for days. But I’m getting better :) If I just give everything my best shot, and let myself relax a little, then that’s all I need to do.

Being hard on myself is just a habit. I have accomplished alot of goals by now, but to me it’s just not good enough, I can always do better, theres rooms for improvement. I am very sociable, I have fun, I go out all the time, I have been living life to the fullest, connecting with everyone, smiling, laughing, being me. Or is the fact that when I just have soo much time to waste on the internet, I overanalyse, instead of living life. I stare at my goals, instead of conquering them. Living in my head, instead of being truly connected with my wonderful self.

Bravo, bravo, you have successfully been hard on yourself. Let this go. and build on a new habit.

So what would you like to create now?

What do you want now that will move and touch your soul?

Stop resisting anything.

Let go of each thought and feelings.

Just let go.

Breathe…...

Live

Be

......

This is hard, like if I’m not being hard on myself I won’t notice.

Idk what will happen with this…

I just feel so dumb sometimes.

I took a big step today. I did something today that would have been, in months past, very devastating. I feel like I took it in stride today. Although I am in a sense, saddened and somewhat upset, I feel like my mindset is different than it would have been previously. That makes me feel good. Even if I did dent my car a little. It’s just the exterior and no functionality has been sacrificed. So be it. I’m okay so it’s okay.

It should be one of the seven deadly sins.

I have unrealistic expectations for myself. I get so mad when I make mistakes, and I beat myself up for small ‘stuff’. I’m much better than I was during my teenage years but I still have a long way to go.

I take everything onto my own shoulders. I don’t know why it is so hard for me to let things go. There are things other people do that I don’t think twice about… but I judge myself really harshly for the same actions. Double standard? I think so.

I hope I can improve on this a little more everyday. I’m a person, I make mistakes, and I know I deserve a little slack. The hardest battles I’ve ever fought in my life have been with myself, and I’m tired of it. I need to love myself for who I am and let go of the imaginary standards I’ve set.

I will never give up on trying to improve myself through experiences and actions, but I won’t go on trying to be a better version of myself. I’m good enough, and people love me for who I am.