take risks

i’ll set this goal as Achieved when i’ve done at least 3 things that i see as abnormally risky!

Oh and I also was driving 40mph over the speed limit at 12:30am…. oops? haha ok, so it was TOTALLY intentional. There were no other cars, I was on a deserted 2-mile stretch of road in a quiet suburban town… If I had gotten caught I would have been charged with driving without a license (I only have a permit), and driving 40+ mph over the speed limit, which results in the addition of 11 points on my permit. Once I reach 11 points, it’s suspended. I would have been in serious, serious shit.

that’s definitely the STUPIDEST thing I’ve ever done. I probably will never ever do it again. But it was fun, I needed to do something to feel free, so I was going 60, blasting my Instant Karma CD :D

So the whole 12.2 mile mountain run thing fell through… and the whole going for the guy I really like thing also fell through… mostly because I fell out of love with both of them.
BUT I did go for a guy over the summer who I really liked/maybe still like… it was my first kiss and I was totally the one who initiated it.. :D :D. I guess it wasn’t a HUGE risk because I knew he wouldn’t reject me… but it still took balls, and it’s totally uncharacteristic of me to do something like that (I guess that’s kind of a given, though, seeing as it WAS my first kiss…) but it was very very rewarding :) and it wasn’t a disaster like I always imagined it being.. hahaha.

I’ve taken the biggest risk of my life a few days ago: I think I finally found the person I love (who basically is my exboyfriend) – and I told him.

And now I feel like an idiot. It’s the first time in my life that there is really no way to get what I want. I mean, I deserve it but it’s still very, very hard. He thinks he can’t decide whether to give us a chance and I’m just sitting there and nothing makes sense anymore, everything’s so empty. The fact that risks are not only about chances but about losing something is greatly underestimated.

I don’t know if I regret it yet, but I guess I will. At least I’ll know that I really tried.

Taking risks is a scare thing. I can do it, but when it comes to doing it by talking to someone face to face, it becomes a whole different ball game. I admit, I am afraid.

I ski in Telluride which is said to have “the toughest steeps in the country.” normally I ski all blacks and a few double blacks here and there. I skied mad hard during xmas break, so this February break, I set out to have a little fun, and ended up skiing double black ex runs (so it’s double black, but harder, hence the “ex” for extreme terrain) as well as a few rails in the terrain park, which i’ve never done before (I fell twice, resulting in a huge bruise on my hip and a bunch of ppl on the chair lift laughing at me… haha but it was fun). I did a few hike-to runs in the new bowl they opened up, some in-the-trees between two double black mogul runs, some actual runs that were moguls in the trees, and some on Gold Hill, which is a whole lift of double black ex runs, all with 170cm skis (I myself am about 172cm.. haha so that’s tough going in the trees and moguls).
I also climbed the inside of my house… it’s made of logs, so they make real nice hand and foot holds, especially the cracks and cross beams and things. I came back with a few fingers ripped open, some bruises, etc. it was way fun!
now I’m taking on the challenge of running distance in spring track while I train for a 12.2 mile mountain run which is at the end of the summer. huge challenge, but I’m feeling adventurous. (I accidentally ran 11-12 miles when I got lost in a neighboring town, and it took 3 days to recover… long story, but it was really cool so that gave me a boost of confidence).
also, I’m going for a guy I like. hopefully I won’t screw it up. btw, it’ll be my first kiss if all goes according to plan :)
whew! I feel adventurous lol.

takes risks, stop living so cautiously and enjoy life.

I am a creature of habit these days. A few years ago I was a real risk taker, nothing was too absurd, difficult or impractical for me. Then reality hit and I’ve worked very hard to get where I am today but I feel stifled and unfulfilled these days. I would like to try new things and explore new territory. No more doldrums!

Even no I take risks already, My mates are like quite whimpy =P LOL x

Taking risks is not about the risk, it is about how confident you are in yourself. I have been working on obtaining this level of confidence for almost a year. Finally, I feel that I can take this off my list. It wasn’t that I was afraid of risks, it was that I was not confident to take them when the opportunity arose. I feel that I am in general a risk taker, and I like that about myself. I will continue to take risks if I feel they are right for me.