be unafraid of failure

i hate failing.. i usually quit before i allow myself to fail at things. this can be stressfull because i force myself to become good at everything i try, aka being on three cheerleading teams this past year… uhh never going to happen again, because i tried to be the start of every team…exhausting

it’s my job to get rejected on behalf of my clients, but it’s been getting to me as of late. I just don’t want to be that crazy homeless broad talking to themselves on the train…which I will be if I lose this dream…I think.

Seems like I finally got rid of this barrier. Fear is such a useless emotion and it wasn’t easy dealing with it. The right attitude caused by continuous self-talk that defeats my fear did the job for me so far. I think its like a flew that pops up once in a while.

Haha.I.laugh.at.the.sound.of.that.
Yesterday.In.Math.Class.
I.was.doing.Linear.Equations.
for.my.portfolio.
Turns.out.my.lines.were.all.crooked.
and.every.single.time.I.tried.to.fix.it.it.came.out.the.same.
My.teacher.told.me.”you.might.fail.if.you.
can’t.do.this.”.I.cried.for.
about.2.hours.
My.teacher.came.back.and.saw.me.crying.and.said.that.if.i.ever.needed.help.just.tocome.after.school.then.he.told.me.i’ll.pick.you.up.
during.your.last.two.classes.
so.he.did.and.he.helped.me.and.then.i.finally.
achieved.it.
but.i’ll.still.cry.if.i’m.ever.face.with.failure.

in a dead end job. I don’t why I started here to begin with. My experience and schooling is in the IT field and I took a telecommuncations job. I’ve been here @ EMSI ordering Medical Records for Attorney’s & Insurance Co.’s for 8 month. It’s so tideous and monotonous. I’m looking for a job I enjoy, but I’m scared to make the jump…I need my guranteed paycheck. So I guess I’ll just keep looking until I find another job that sparks my interest…

If you paint in your mind a picture of bright and happy expectations, you put yourself into a condition conducive to your goal. —Norman Vincent Peale

a lot of my life I have been young and naive and have not done things because I was afraid of failure. I think I’ve grown up enought to know that if I don’t try then of course I’ll fail and if I do try and fail, well at least I’ll know and have taken a risk. So well see how well this plays out in the future!

There is no such thing as failure… only feedback!

Fear is definately my worst enemy. Fear keeps you a failure. Overcoming fear means accepting failing but not being a failure.

It’s just gone, No more ‘What if this happens?’ or questioning whether what I do will be up to mark. If others think that what I do isn’t up to their standard then I am sure they can demonstrate their own abilities if they know best. It’s strange, I am beginning to embrace failure, it’s helping me grow and become more responsible and strong enough to combat all life’s woes and troubles. It’s just gone naturally, maybe it’s because I am stopping second guessing myself constantly. Failure can be a great motivator on the path to success.