pay more attention

be in a mode that I am unable to pay much attention to my list.

I wonder if I am progressing on some of the goals, without knowing it.

I can’t say I am in a place at the moment that I want to look and find out! But I also know that such sentiments can change quite quickly for me. So I won’t get too concerned.

(Now that I’ve written it, I know that that last statement in and of itself is progress for me… and I’ll just leave it at that).

I have already caught myself question my thoughts IN MY SLEEP! Unfortunately, I did not write it down immediately and already forget the exact situation, but I questioned what I was thinking and made myself re-frame it.

I guess I talked to enough people about monitoring my thinking yesterday that it became part of my dreaming last night.

Very, very strange and unexpected. But perhaps a good sign of how deeply this desire is being planted in me?

not be afraid to write about ‘good’.

It doesn’t mean the good will disappear.

And I do know there is no perfect.

pay more attention to my self-talk.

But how does one do this at all times???

It sounds overwhelmingly daunting. But maybe it is another ‘bit by bit’ thing?

(lots more work needed in the ‘grey zone’...)

how many of my goals are linked.

Emotional procrastination, calming down, not calling my family often.

They are all connected to how I feel about/view myself.

It all comes down to growing in my relationship with Christ, and emotional healing.

I pay attention to the littlest things when I’m just having a random conversation and I absorb things easily in school, but whenn it comes to being observant and taking instructions, I am among the worst. I would love to overcome this aspect of me… but I don’t know how quite yet…

Just to my mom and seeing what was going on with everyone – feelings and different stuffs.

I need to break this up into more easily achieved goals. I’ll never be able to mark this one off as it’s currently worded… and I need that space for other things.

I think my new-found focus on writing things down is really helping with this, so I’ll retire it from my list.

Amusingly, I don’t have any specific examples of me paying more attention, which presumably means I wasn’t paying attention. However, I feel like I’m not forgetting things nearly as often, which is good enough for me.

And I’m paying attention…to different people and just in general. Feels pretty good, too.