I want to live...

I want to be who I am and live the way I want to live and it will take me accomplishing all of my immediate goals to do so.

I feel like im just keeping busy until my time comes and that is not the way I want to live before I die. I want to live a satisfide life. When I lay on my death bed I want to feel that life was good and i have acomplished great things and that Ive made a difrence.

I dont wont to survive my life, i want to live it!

I feel like I am not moving. I feel like I am standing still. The whole world is passing me by and there is nothing I can do about it.

I think that hey maybe i woulds die today but i don’t.so i think maybe tomorrow but still i see light .So i think im glad im not dead today.i love being alive i love it with all my heart but sometimes i wonder that if i might die would i see light again after i die??????

i feel so dead inside. i just want to live. if not, then there’s no point anymore. the only thing i have is my faith. i’ve made the decision that i need a change. so i am moving from the place i call home, to a large metropolitan area, to see if i can survive on my own. i’m scared. but i should ‘walk by faith’ right? i want to skydive, and embrace people, and take chances. i’m scared to leave my dad. because he’s all alone when i’m not here. he insists that he’s been living long before i came along, so he’ll be fine. but who will protect me? who will be waiting up when i come home late at night? who will check on the noises outside? or take the trash out in the middle of the night? i guess it’ll be me. i want this so bad. i want to feel alive. and actually do something with my life. i want to LIVE!