msilverman is flexible
I think this is more a mantra and less of a goal, keeping it on my list does make me aware though.
How I did it: I made up my mind to do it- and put it behind me. I can't dwell on any wrongdoings or negative emotions without damaging my own spirit! The only thing I have control over is myself and my actions. I am moving forward with a positive mindset and am going to make an effort daily to remember life is short and the past is just that.. the past.
Lessons & tips: Look forward to your future, pursue goals for yourself and don't depend on others to apologize or make it right with you. I don't need anyone's approval to move on!
msilverman is flexible
I think this is more a mantra and less of a goal, keeping it on my list does make me aware though.
I am turning 20 years old in 2 days, and i feel like my life has gone down hill… yeah just down hill.
As a recovering cocaine addict of two years, i relapsed a week before christmas. My whole life was together. I have my own apartment, all my own stuff, a real job that pays 31k a year, a nice car, and a loving boyfriend of 4 years…. so what went wrong?
I felt this almost sufficating feeling of just wanting to have freedom…. i grew up to fast…. which has been my excuse for far to long… that and my childhood. I can’t just keep blaming my abusive childhood on my actions…. but tonight i just blew up… i exploded.
I feel so damn scared. No guidence… so many questions, but no answers. I just wanna get my life back on track. I just wanna feel better about myself. I am sick of lying, i am sick of the guilt, i am sick of being verbally and physically abusive…. I just wanna get my life back on track.
I don’t know what it is but almost every emotional experience in my life seems to stay at the forefront of my mind and whenever I think a situation is going in that direction again I just give up or shut it out before it can hurt me again. I want to be able to get hurt and not have it continually feel like it’s the end of the world.