See HIM again

I guess this is a little bit difficult, maybe it will take much more time than I think… u_u He lives in another city, we broke up after 6 almost 7 years of history… I’ve tried to move on but I still miss him. Anyway, since we broke up I haven’t even known anything of him… Sometimes I really regret lots of things I did or didn’t do, but one thing’s for sure I’d really like to see him again…

I’ve found another him :-D
A true one

It was super weird to see him again, and especially in these settings. But I did it and it was fun and I’ll do it again (this time without being terrified.)

It used to be, back when I missed him. But I don’t really anymore. More and more, he’s getting a blackened record from me. He’ll never be all that I want, and I’m tired of lowering my standards. I want to see him, but I don’t want to be more than friends.

He’s going to my school this year… How did this happen? Not that I’m upset that he’s coming… Just… It’s weird…

I had my orientation yesterday. I can’t imagine him there. I think my brain has categorized him in certain places, like he belongs in Nelsonville or in Cincinnati and that’s it… I can’t imagine what it’d be like to go to school with him. And we’d both be art students. That’d be kinda neat… I just want to hug him again…

I talked to him yesterday. This is about the third time I’ve called him since we broke up. Things go well when we talk – we update each other on our lives, complain about Lisa and work, and talk about future plans (when we might both be at Shawnee.)

I’m not saying I want to start our relationship back up. I just want to get back to being friends like we were once. When things were so good between us. :) I love him as a friend.

On a side note, I enjoyed his conversation MUCH better than the one with my boyfriend. A bad sign? YES! :(

I haven’t seen him in three years (until a few weeks ago). I still believe that I was utterly and completely in love with him, but now I also think that he may have been using me. An awful thing to do, when your thousands of miles away in Afghanistan for 3/4 of the relationship. He had someone to send him letters and someone to come home to on his leave. And when he didn’t need me anymore, he cut me out of his life. It hurt me so much and I’m still not over him.

Seeing him opened up all of those wounds, and made it hard again. I don’t think I’ll see him again, but I’m glad I did this time. If nothing else, it let me know that seeing him WON’T help.

She’s doesn’t deserve to be in a place like this
All alone
She’s underage and so very very brave
A fake ID lent her credibility
She sits at the bar
The gents are gonna try so hard

He said it was a one night stand
But the alcohol didn’t let her understand
Yeah, he said it was a one night stand
A one night stand

So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark
So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark

So the bartender who tends to pretend that he’s concerned
Says, “Girlie girlie, you’re at your best (you’re at your best) when you’re sober”
And she slurs, “No no, just one more”
And one turns into four
The fourth drink instinct is taking over
And the gentleman is leading her towards the door

So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark
So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark

She thought that she could buy happiness by
By the bottle
She thought that she could buy happiness by
By the bottle
She thought that she could buy happiness by
By the bottle

So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark
So what made you think
That he couldn’t find a door in the morning?
When he found that bed so easily
In the dark

He said it was a one night stand
But the alcohol didn’t let her understand
Yeah, he said it was a one night stand
A one night stand

I havnt seen him since that month.
The month my mom passed away.
He never called me like he said he would.
My first awakening to the world of Girls,Boys&&Sex. He wanted it first, And I, Acting out as a fool, gave it to him.
Right when I needed someone the most, he left and never came back.

Never Heard of him, or seen him ever again.

Or any of them for that matter.