Stop being so scared

“the more the light shines through me”

im scare of a lot of things and i battle them daily. i dont want to waste any of this life. i know fear comes from envy,pride,insecurity

i know the things im most scared of is..things that if they change..they change..if i loose my job..i find another on. if i dont want to loose somthing..if i do. my time was up with it.

im scare of staying stale and being a person that is not me. being angry and mean to people i love..im learning to bed and flex and go with the flow. i try to control situations..but somtimes you cant..

im working on looking at why im scare over somthing…it comes down to things of if it changes then i have ot work to find a new balance. and well thats life..

but somthings are so scary..like loosing my family or my beloved partner.
death is somthing i cannot contend with, just have to take it as is..
i just want to be good enough for my girl..she is so the most precious thing in the world…i want to be with her always.she makes me feel so good..
so i wake up everyday with the work in my mind. to be somthing im not will make it all go away.
every change is benifical…so it changes because i am growing and evolving…
i will stop and look at why im “scared” where it comes from and why that emotion is being triggered

i have been through so much in my life. nothing ever seems to be settled. i just want to know that im going to have a good life with my girlfriend. make her my wife and have stuff that is ours.

a home, travel time, good friends. some peace and quiet in this life. but i always fear that its all going to fall apart and im going to be alone. that im going to loose her love and she wont want to be with me.
so everyday i do a little for myself cause this is what is going to make her stay..cause she loves me for me. not try to be somthing im not or learn from any mistake i make. she will be there smiling at me.

that the distance wont push us away. but bring us together to know that we can do things together and apart. that we are both independent. but when she isnt there it get lonly at night and i have no one to cuddle against. so i fill my heart with hope and her memory. and rejoyce that one day she will be back and we can have a good life together..

I am scared to drive, scared to go see north east and kashmir alone(not just due to the tension there but also my family wont let me travel alone.. anywhere.. which also makes kinda sense in this country.
But driving? everyone drives every which way here… so can i.. then why dont I?Maybe when i stop expecting my brother(or anyone) to help me.MAybe pay someone for it.

I hate being like this.
Everytime I leave the house.. I feel nervous.
If I go into a public place, like a shopping centre, I even start shaking sometimes, especially when there are a lot of strangers around.
I’m ‘scared’ of trying new things, because I fear drastic changes. I don’t have very many friends; trust is an issue.
I’m scared to open my mouth to say something.
I can’t hold down a job, because I’m not ‘talkative/social enough’. I sit alone, practically every day. I hardly ever get phonecalls. People don’t even bother trying to talk to me anymore.
I am only seventeen years old, and I want to overcome this.

I’m really really reaaaally scared of everything. I don’t wanna be outside when it’s dark, because then I think someone will kill me. I cant trust people or anything…

im anxious and paranoid. i dont wanna be.

i dont want to be so scared of everything

It’s silly how sometimes you can be so scared of something, but at the same time, you know how right this something is. It’s like it’s too good to be true, so you think something is going ot go wrong. But I can’t be scared anymore!! I have to be positive, and be happy…which I am! Very much so.